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Sunday, March 25, 2007
The only thing i ever did to "outrage" the council juniors was to poke my nose into the stupid PI even though i didnt have to.
The other thing i did to "outrage" them was to give them my freaking honest comments on how i really saw them as an 'outsider' of council and not as a 'friend' of them.
I told them how i really saw them from an outsider's opinion and bloody hell, i even asked my friends what they thought of these ppl and they gave me feedback too.
So i freaking went to compile every bloody information i got and i told them straight up what i felt and how other ppl viewed them, and they take my opinion as being effing biased.
And furthermore, when they came into the AVT after waiting for so long,
NONE of the SMExCo wanted to say anything.
So what do you want me to do?
I didnt want the fucking interviewees to have wasted their "precious" time outside.
So i spoke up for all the SMExCos, whatever they said during the prior meeting.
So fuck! I freaking tell u opinions and waste my fucking saliva and in the end get maliciously attacked by all of the juniors.
IS THAT FAIR TO ME?
Crystal Chan spoke too.
And why isnt she attacked?
COS SHE IS IN EXCO.
AND IM NOT, IM JUST A NORMAL MEMBER.
And by talking too much this is what i get.
To the SMExCo:
I help you all during PI, the least you can do is help defend me.
But you all didnt, you all care more abt "junior welfare".
Ever heard of PEER HELP? PEER WELFARE?
PEER DEFENCE?
Obviously you all care more abt the juniors, helping them "tide through" than helping me.
By helping them, you make them hate me more, and attack me more.
So obviously there isnt any PEER SUPPORT in this case,
So fine. I really dont care anymore.
I shouldnt have freaking gone into council.
If you wanted me to go in and do my part, what fucking part do you want me to do?
Help the SMExCo and go for meetings to plan activities?
Or do you want me to be like you all, dont go for any meetings at all and just DO WHAT YOU'RE TOLD?
Well, of course fucking not.
Because council trains you to be leaders.
And i dont see how just doing what you're told is being a fucking leader.
I see a leader as someone planning the work behind-the-scenes while going for meetings.
Not just playing the games, not just being an orientation leader.
But by being the freaking planner.
And second of all, why do my dance juniors dislike me?
Oh, maybe it's cos i have been instructed by my teacher to fucking SCOLD THEM?
It's not like i like to fucking scold ppl right.
It's not like i wanna make them dislike me.
But fucking hell!
All i did was do what my teacher told me (for dance) and give my fucking honest opinions (for PI).
In what fucking way do you call that offensive?
If you think all my juniors dislike me, fine.
But whether the seniors dislike the juniors, that's another matter.
ASK!
ASK EVERY FUCKING SEC 4 IN DANCE!
ASK THEM ABT THAT PARTICULAR GROUP.
JUST ASK.
YOU SEE WHAT THEY SAY.
AND ABOUT COUNCIL JUNIORS,
FINE. GOT PPL DEFEND THEM.
BUT IS THERE ANYONE TO HELP ME?
NO. ALWAYS "CHILL.. RELAX.."
And then the matter fades into obscurity.
Ppl expect me to fucking chill and fucking relax everytime i see a fucking junior post a fucking bad comment, or insult abt me?
Well, i cant take it hands down.
IM NOT GONNA CHILL, IM NOT GONNA RELAX.
THIS MATTER ISNT GONNA REST.
Alot of ppl treat this stupid thing as a fucking joke.Well it's not.And the last straw came when jinni accused me of shedding crocodile tears after lao shi lectured us.
Minghui cries badly, it's real.I cry, and it's fake.I didnt cry out of sadness, i cried out of anger.
And you have to fucking right to fucking tell me that i shed crocodile tears because you are not in my fucking shoes and you dont know the fucking stress im fucking facing.JOKE! JOKE AROUND ABT THIS MATTER.
But it's not a fucking joke.
Maybe that's how everyone treats things now..
AS A HUGE MUTHAFUCKING JOKE.
Well it's not.
And "CHILLING".. Is not exactly that way you handle it.
You can tag.. And joke.. And ask me to relax and chill and say i still have "him"..
Well thanks.
Dont treat this matter seriously.
Fine. Dont. Cos it's not YOUR problem, or that's what you think.
But this girl is under your COMMITTEE.
She is under you and you should try and handle this problem together with the other comm head.
Not to just tell me to "relax".
Because i cant.
Because someone just accused me of being FAKE.
Tell me how you feel when you're genuinely sad and angry.
Your friend is crying hopelessly, and your heart cant take it anymore.
You cry, yes you do.
But SOMEWAY OR ANOTHER, A BUNCH OF CHILDISH, SPOILT AND PATHETIC PPL HAVE TO STATE THAT YOU ARE FAKING YOUR EMOTIONS,
THAT YOU ARE CRYING JUST BECAUSE THE OTHER PERSON IS CRYING.
FAKING YOUR EMOTIONS.
FAKING.
FUCKING FAKING.
HOW WILL YOU FUCKING FEEL?!?!?!?
I dont feel a sense of righteousness in this stupid matter.
There is no ONE righteous person who can differentiate what's right and what's wrong.
Everyone's backbone is gone.
Invertebrae.
Btw, joking abt "him" and "me", whatever the fuck you mean,
Is fucking childish.
Sec fours, grow up.
And BEn, whichever BEn you are..
You are not in my situation, so you really dont need to criticize me for using the word fuck in every fucking sentence of mine.
It's my post, it's my keyboard, it's my life.
You dont know MY LIFE.
My standard of English is indeed bad.
How abt you try and find a substitute for every "fuck" or "fucking" that i use?
See if your command of English lords over others.
Oh and btw, it's "exaggerate". Not "exagerrate". (:
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Sunday, March 25, 2007
The only thing i ever did to "outrage" the council juniors was to poke my nose into the stupid PI even though i didnt have to.
The other thing i did to "outrage" them was to give them my freaking honest comments on how i really saw them as an 'outsider' of council and not as a 'friend' of them.
I told them how i really saw them from an outsider's opinion and bloody hell, i even asked my friends what they thought of these ppl and they gave me feedback too.
So i freaking went to compile every bloody information i got and i told them straight up what i felt and how other ppl viewed them, and they take my opinion as being effing biased.
And furthermore, when they came into the AVT after waiting for so long,
NONE of the SMExCo wanted to say anything.
So what do you want me to do?
I didnt want the fucking interviewees to have wasted their "precious" time outside.
So i spoke up for all the SMExCos, whatever they said during the prior meeting.
So fuck! I freaking tell u opinions and waste my fucking saliva and in the end get maliciously attacked by all of the juniors.
IS THAT FAIR TO ME?
Crystal Chan spoke too.
And why isnt she attacked?
COS SHE IS IN EXCO.
AND IM NOT, IM JUST A NORMAL MEMBER.
And by talking too much this is what i get.
To the SMExCo:
I help you all during PI, the least you can do is help defend me.
But you all didnt, you all care more abt "junior welfare".
Ever heard of PEER HELP? PEER WELFARE?
PEER DEFENCE?
Obviously you all care more abt the juniors, helping them "tide through" than helping me.
By helping them, you make them hate me more, and attack me more.
So obviously there isnt any PEER SUPPORT in this case,
So fine. I really dont care anymore.
I shouldnt have freaking gone into council.
If you wanted me to go in and do my part, what fucking part do you want me to do?
Help the SMExCo and go for meetings to plan activities?
Or do you want me to be like you all, dont go for any meetings at all and just DO WHAT YOU'RE TOLD?
Well, of course fucking not.
Because council trains you to be leaders.
And i dont see how just doing what you're told is being a fucking leader.
I see a leader as someone planning the work behind-the-scenes while going for meetings.
Not just playing the games, not just being an orientation leader.
But by being the freaking planner.
And second of all, why do my dance juniors dislike me?
Oh, maybe it's cos i have been instructed by my teacher to fucking SCOLD THEM?
It's not like i like to fucking scold ppl right.
It's not like i wanna make them dislike me.
But fucking hell!
All i did was do what my teacher told me (for dance) and give my fucking honest opinions (for PI).
In what fucking way do you call that offensive?
If you think all my juniors dislike me, fine.
But whether the seniors dislike the juniors, that's another matter.
ASK!
ASK EVERY FUCKING SEC 4 IN DANCE!
ASK THEM ABT THAT PARTICULAR GROUP.
JUST ASK.
YOU SEE WHAT THEY SAY.
AND ABOUT COUNCIL JUNIORS,
FINE. GOT PPL DEFEND THEM.
BUT IS THERE ANYONE TO HELP ME?
NO. ALWAYS "CHILL.. RELAX.."
And then the matter fades into obscurity.
Ppl expect me to fucking chill and fucking relax everytime i see a fucking junior post a fucking bad comment, or insult abt me?
Well, i cant take it hands down.
IM NOT GONNA CHILL, IM NOT GONNA RELAX.
THIS MATTER ISNT GONNA REST.
Alot of ppl treat this stupid thing as a fucking joke.Well it's not.And the last straw came when jinni accused me of shedding crocodile tears after lao shi lectured us.
Minghui cries badly, it's real.I cry, and it's fake.I didnt cry out of sadness, i cried out of anger.
And you have to fucking right to fucking tell me that i shed crocodile tears because you are not in my fucking shoes and you dont know the fucking stress im fucking facing.JOKE! JOKE AROUND ABT THIS MATTER.
But it's not a fucking joke.
Maybe that's how everyone treats things now..
AS A HUGE MUTHAFUCKING JOKE.
Well it's not.
And "CHILLING".. Is not exactly that way you handle it.
You can tag.. And joke.. And ask me to relax and chill and say i still have "him"..
Well thanks.
Dont treat this matter seriously.
Fine. Dont. Cos it's not YOUR problem, or that's what you think.
But this girl is under your COMMITTEE.
She is under you and you should try and handle this problem together with the other comm head.
Not to just tell me to "relax".
Because i cant.
Because someone just accused me of being FAKE.
Tell me how you feel when you're genuinely sad and angry.
Your friend is crying hopelessly, and your heart cant take it anymore.
You cry, yes you do.
But SOMEWAY OR ANOTHER, A BUNCH OF CHILDISH, SPOILT AND PATHETIC PPL HAVE TO STATE THAT YOU ARE FAKING YOUR EMOTIONS,
THAT YOU ARE CRYING JUST BECAUSE THE OTHER PERSON IS CRYING.
FAKING YOUR EMOTIONS.
FAKING.
FUCKING FAKING.
HOW WILL YOU FUCKING FEEL?!?!?!?
I dont feel a sense of righteousness in this stupid matter.
There is no ONE righteous person who can differentiate what's right and what's wrong.
Everyone's backbone is gone.
Invertebrae.
Btw, joking abt "him" and "me", whatever the fuck you mean,
Is fucking childish.
Sec fours, grow up.
And BEn, whichever BEn you are..
You are not in my situation, so you really dont need to criticize me for using the word fuck in every fucking sentence of mine.
It's my post, it's my keyboard, it's my life.
You dont know MY LIFE.
My standard of English is indeed bad.
How abt you try and find a substitute for every "fuck" or "fucking" that i use?
See if your command of English lords over others.
Oh and btw, it's "exaggerate". Not "exagerrate". (:
