NALINA; every beat of my heart

♥ Monday, October 30, 2006

9:03 PM

wenbutt: haii. dont remind me of sec 1 times. i miss em. ): SO OLD LE!!! )':
sock: relinkedddd! :D MUACKS
t'bitha: why tabby-unfriendly? CHOU YU = ugly fishhhie. (X RELINKEDD! :D

How come whenever im free im BORED?
Then when im busy, im STRESSED? ):
Like totally sucky man.

On free days NOTHING seems to take place.
And then on THOSE days everything is like SQUASHED together.
RARRRR =/

I have so many extra-curricular stuffs to do. ):
I have to go SHOPPING!
(cannot waste vouchers :D)

Haii.
Oh well.
Cannot rant alot here. =/
ZAI JIAN!
*brain is still in china mode*

♥ Sunday, October 29, 2006

2:41 PM

Replies to tags:

pris: YO! (:
freddie: i didnt know you and jwen had.. you know.. such a relationship. if i love you, that would be cos you're the last human being on earth. :D
daryl: ._. meanie.
fred: ?? screw who? retarded.

My life's been boring since hols.
Been going back to sch non-stop. and my guess is that it WILL be non-stop.
):

But! I am SSOOO excited to be going to CHIANG RAI! (:
Im totally going shopping for stuff to bring there man.
Torchlight, glowsticks.. blah blah.
My bro says that i need some army survival techniques there. ._.
Right. He makes it sound so scary.

I need to pack lots and lots of clothes!
But i dont have enough. ):
Then, wear slippers or shoes there?!! AHHHH
Then must go borrow hol hmk books to go there and read! AHHHH
Then must see what luggage! AHHHHH

Dammit man.
Im too high! WHEEEE

Must do hol hmk. BLEAH.

♥ Friday, October 27, 2006

4:15 PM

Replies to tags:

freddie: DONT COME TO MY HOUSE. EVER. x)
phoebe: pls dont disgust me. hhahaha!
jwen: fred no matter also horny already. just *meow* hahahahahahha
daryl: poor clarice. xD you disgusting fella! x)
kewei: i dont even dare to open the window cos got scary music. ): see ya tmr in sch and you're LINKED! (:

sorry for not replying the tags of those at the bottom of Freakerick.
that's cos theirs are like, 5 days old. :D
then the others all ancient already hehe. (:

went to sch in the morning (again) for council dance prac.
my partner is *drum roll*... ...

JUNLE!!!

you are one lucky guy. xD *bhb*
i turn turn turn spin spin spin until my head is all groggy. 0.0

it was very amusing watching the guys shake their butts.
amusing; yet ~~gross~~. :D
esp leonard's! hahhahaha

after that i went to eat with chermaine, dorita, daryl, guoxiang and leonard.
was discussing what to eat on the train. and ended up with LONG JOHNS (again)!
after eating went shopping.
after shopping went home.
so sian right.
hahhaa.

tmr im going back to sch again for the chiang rai meeting. bleah.
as the security guard said, "No holiday ah?"

"Yah uncle. Super busy man."

yesterday we got back our holistic report card (wtf right).
when boon said HOLISTIC, i thought she was being sarca.
when i saw the report slip, the title said:

HOLISTIC REPORT CARD
OVERALL FOR YEAR 2006

._.
Seriously man.

Results for EOYs MYEs

Total: 511/800 529.2/800 ):
Percentage: 63.9 66.2 from B3 student to B4 student. )):
Conduct: Excellent Very Good it's like the only thing that improved.
Attendance: 77/83 87/92 attendance always shitty. :D why waste the mcs and parents' letters? (:
L1r4: 17 13 My L1R4 is my L1R5. ):
L1r5: 21 17 L1R5 over 20!!! RARRR that's what i call constant deprovement.
Comments: ~~She is able to put forth her views amicably and has displayed a sense of responsibility and shown herself to be capable. She is also self-motivated and inspired to pursue her dreams for the future.~~ However, she still needs to learn how to manage her time better in order to excel academically.
Shit sia.
When Ms Koh called my mum, my mum told her i was busy everyday and there's no time for me to study *slaps head*
WAH BEN4 SI3 LE.
Ms Koh is the student council pub teacher i/c can.
If you tell her im busy i'll be uber duber screwed from council please.
RARRR MUMMMMMEEEEE. ):
~~She is bright and inquisitive. Is generally well-behaved except for~~ occasional lapses of cheekiness.
CHEEKY! Total 3C behaviour. (:

The only reason why my conduct improved was because of student council.
A little birdie told me that if you're councillor your conduct will be EXCELLENT.
*shrugs*
My L1r5 since the starting of the year...
Term one: 15
Term two: 17
Term three: 19
Term four: 21

Always deprove by TWO TWO TWO.
._.

Oh!
And now for the HOLY PART. ._.

Social Emotional Development Report

Personal Strength and Weaknesses: 3
Learning & Personal Growth: 2
Sense of Purpose & Achievement: 4 wah FOUR ah
Goal Setting and Organizational Skills: 2
Time Management: 3.33
Stress Management: 2.67 are you sure i know how to destress?
Emotion Management: 4 wah piang
Perserverance: 3
Problem Solving: 2.67
Moral/Ethical Responsibility (Holiness & Righteousness): 3.67
Personal & Social Responsibility: 3
Communication & Social Engagement: 2.67
Relationship Building: 2.33
Cooperation, Teamwork & Conflict Management: 3.67
Respect For Others: 2.33 hahahahahhahahahaha gossip x)
Care for Community & Environment: 2.33
Loyalty: 3.33

KNS.
Not bad. But what the hell is this for. ._.
So interesting horh.

♥ Thursday, October 26, 2006

5:24 PM

I realised how much time flew this year.
This year is no doubt, my most enjoyable year.
I'll never forget the year 2006.

This was the year the guys started to wear long pants.
This was the year i got separated from my friends of 2 years and shifted to another class.
This was the year i got into 3C; 3CHEEKYS!
This was the year i became the vice-pres of DANCE!
This was the year i entered student council; PUB!

I remembered how weird it was to see all the guys wear long pants.
They all looked like imposters who were trying to act cool by wearing long pants.
Kenan was no longer teased of his leg hair (HAHA) cos they were covered by the pants.
Many many guys of our class, 2F'05, looked just, WEIRD.
But after a month, i got used to it. (:

I rmb on the first day of sch, i walked to my class.
And i hated it.
Walking past every single class, everyone was happy talking away and laughing and smiling.
3C was just, quiet. (can anyone ever believe we were QUIET?!)
It took us abt a week to adjust, and soon, we were the noisiest in the whole level. :D

I rmb how frustrated i was choreographing the CNY dance for the sec 2s that i argued with my seniors.
It was very disrespectful, and i still feel sorry till this day.

I rmb, during Danceworks!, that i got a fever, together with Annia, and we were taken care of by every one.

3C BBQ (had to run after a bike, attacked by charcoal), the hamsters (fudge, caramel, cookie?), sec 3 bonding camp (3C! best class in group A).
Pub outing (retro hairband), interviewee (1st ever night game) and inititation camp (jiajie's flying jump-kick-roll), council investiture (dancing with ****** xD), banner-making (glenn's design pwned mine), english oral duty (gossip like crazy with Kewei).
Dance choreo sessions (laughing), meetings (dance), cleaning up the storeroom (putting up the banner and getting rashes), the pizzas (to make laptops haahahaha), the barbie dolls (stupid BAND lol), the chairs (troublesome to keep carrying them up and down).
Ice-skating (never fall down and playing KB rap on the MRT, prank-calling), ECP outing (kena raped by the rocks, fell down from bike, got drenched) etc.

There're simply too many memories, both good and bad.

Today, it struck me.
We're advancing to sec 4.
There's this tingling feeling in my heart.
I realised how much i love my class, 3C'06.
And it hit me that we're never gonna be together again.
When i hugged Yajing, i was on the brink of crying.
3C'06 will NOT be 4C'07.
And AHS will not be the same ever again.

My friends are being retained, or worse, expelled.
It hurt me to see them for the last time today.
And i left school with a heavy heart.
"See you next year!" was the best i could say to them.

I wish every one good luck for the hols.
Good luck for our future.

Here's a brief description of sec sch:
sec 1 = noob. nerd. scared and afraid of a new environment.
sec 2 = not-so-noob noob.
sec 3 = dua pai liao. upgrade to long pants.
sec 4 = O levels. ._. afraid of moving out of our environment.

FOUR YEARS IS SO NOT ENOUGH.
I hate growing up.
Secondary sch is the best time of your life.
I agree.
Time passes so fast, doesnt it?

I PROCLAIM LOUDLY:

I LOVE 3C.

I LOVE DANCE.

I LOVE COUNCIL.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS.

I LOVE 2006!!!!!!!!!

♥ Sunday, October 22, 2006

7:57 PM

I WON $7.90 IN MAHJONG!!!!!! (:

And then just now went out and bought sneakers for $45.50.
Hahahhaa.

At parkway Isetan, there was a counter where this guy was extracting the pearls from the oysters LIVE.
Like superta-cool!
It really stunk, but oh well. (:
And i found out yesterday from my dad that round round pearls are like, WORTHLESS cos they're cultured.
Those expensive ones are called BAROQUE PEARLS.
And they're distorted and HUGE.
But really pretty. (((:

DISTORTED PEARLS = EXPENSIVE AND PRETTY.
What a weird world.

I think im starting to be interested in jewellery.
LOL.

Yawn. Super tired. (:
Check out this url and this game: http://jayisgames.com/archives/2005/09/the_house.php
It's damn fun. :D

♥ Saturday, October 21, 2006

6:09 PM

#1 Single, taken or crushing?
Single, and shall not be taken till im 17+ 18. LOL. xDD

#2 Are you happy with your life?
Yeah, kinda. (:

#3 When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?
How do you even know whether that person is THE RIGHT PERSON?

#4 Have you ever had your heart broken?
Ermm.. Nope i guess. (((:

#5 Do you believe that there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
Like, NEVER. But it's unescapable.

#6 Would you ever take someone back if he/she cheated on you?
Most likely no, but depending on the circumstances. Hahhaa.

#7 Have you talked about marriage with another before?
Yupp. :D

#8 Do you want children?
DOOIIII. HUMANS' MISSION IN LIFE: TO ENSURE THE SURVIVAL OF OUR CHILDREN. LOL.

#9 How many?
Most to most 4 man.

#10 Would you consider adoption?
Well. If im like, barren. LOL.

#11 If somebody likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feeling?
Ask the person who he/she likes and then start to kachiao the person. HHAHA

#12 Do you enjoy getting into a relationship?
NOOOOO

#13 Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did before?
Never had an ex. (:

#14 Do you believe in love at first sight?
Nope, only infatuation at first sight.

#15 Do you believe that you can change someone?
Nah. Ben3 xing4 nan2 gai3. But still possible. :D

#16 Are you romantic?
I wanna be romanticized. (((X

#17 If you could get married anywhere, where would it be?
Married.. IN HEAVEN! Since i cant get to Heaven just yet, i'll just go to the substitute on Earth, a CHURCH.

#18 Do you easily give in in fighting?
NOPE. I'll pin1 dao4 di3! :D

#19 Have you wished that you could have had someone but messed it up?
Errmmmm. Not really. You cant wish in life, you gotta GET IT.

#20 Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Nope.

#21 Have you ever broken a heart?
Dont think so.

#22 If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl whom you are deepy in love with, what will you do?
Give in to my friend.

#23 Are u missing someone now?
IM NOT MISSIN YOU! LOL. No lah. :D

Im like super bored today.
Getting lots and lots of headaches. ):
No ballet cos it's Deepavali.
So, really really sian sia.

This morning i went to sch for Council Meeting.
Seriously, not be rude or anything,

it was a waste of time.

I think dance meetings are more efficient and more organized.
At least every one contributes something or keeps quiet.
But in council meeting everyone is doing their own stuff and talking and talking.
Then somemore there were late ppl.

It kinda pisses me off to see tardy ppl.
I dont know why.
Sometimes i know maybe you missed your bus or it suddenly rained and the car got stuck in traffic jam..
But NOT cos you OVERSLEPT, or your parents OVERSLEPT.
Oversleeping is like the LAMEST shit ever.

If i oversleep i'll just not go.
My life policy.

Only dead fish swim with the stream.

♥ Friday, October 20, 2006

10:52 PM

IM TOTALLY PISSED AT ALL OF YOU

♥ Tuesday, October 17, 2006

6:40 PM

im tired today. ):
when all you got to keep is strong
all i gotta say is:
move along move along
my knee hurts like crap.
like i know you do
and, the skin is peeled.
and even when your hope is gone
there's pus.
move along move along
and it's disgusting.
just to make it through
i need plaster. ):
when everything is wrong
it really hurts.
we move along
BOOHOO.

right back what is ~~wrong~~
we move along -

♥ Monday, October 16, 2006

10:49 PM

AS I LOOK INTO THE MIRROR,

I CANNOT GIVE MYSELF A NAME.

THROUGH ALL THESE LIES I'VE HIDDEN

AND LOST MYSELF IN SHAME.

MY REALITY SINKS IN NOW,

THIS ILLUSION IS NO MORE.

MASQUERADE,

PAPER FACES ON PARADE.

♥ Sunday, October 15, 2006

4:55 PM

Damn it.
Why does my last toenail always hit something?

Oh yes.
I suddenly thought of my schedule for the month of Nov and Dec.
If im not wrong.. Here it is:

Nov:
1) LOTS AND LOTS OF DANCE PRAC
2) BRIDGING PROGRAMME (HOPEFULLY NOT)
3) CHIANG RAI!!! :D
4) BALLET TRAININGS

Dec:
1) COUNCIL BONDING CAMP
2) DANCE CAMP! (:
3) BALLET CONCERT
3) ORIENTATION TRAINING CAMP
4) SEC 1 ORIENTATION CAMP

ZOMG.
I THINK IM GONNA DIE OF EXHAUSTION BEFORE EVEN MAKING IT TO SEC 4.

Ohohoh!
And i saw prom dresses for $55.
FIFTY-FIVE DOLLARS. (X

Why cant my prom be this year? ):
But no o levels lah DUH.

♥ Thursday, October 12, 2006

11:19 PM

Shit man.
I dont wanna go sch tmr..
Im scared to get my results. ):

Haii.
Today i spent so much money on a bunch of stuff.
A pair or red dancing shoes - $73
Anderson's Ice Cream (Happy Brownie) - $4.30

I almost bought a grey Mango dress for $110.
Lucky never.
Anyways im still damn scared to go to sch. ):

Haii.
I got a really bad feeling.
BYEBYE CHIANG RAI!
and i thought i had hope. ))):

♥ Wednesday, October 11, 2006

10:29 PM

Goo Goo Dolls - I'll Be

The strands in your eyes
That color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains
Thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows
Of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival
You're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows
Of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

I've dropped out
Burned up
Fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in
Turned on
Remembered the things you said

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of you life

(:
i like you too. But isnt it impossible between us?
Im so tired!
Rarrr.

Today was the last day of EOYs!
So fast exam finish liao!!
Hahahah super yay! (:

And i received some really good news today..
Which will be confirmed later..
See whether it'll be good news not. :D

Oh yes.
Why im tired. =/

1) SHOPPING!
Hahha. Went shopping with Char at Marina Square just now.
Watched World Trade Centre.
It wasnt as nice as i expected it to be.
There are real life images and i almost cried.
I TEARED.
But truthfully,
I cried more during CLICK.
HAHAHAHA

2) BALLET!
Super tired!
Did dreaded pointe work again and my 4th toe is once again,
BLISTERED!
My ankles are weak too! :'(
BOOHOO VERY PAIN.
Hahhahaa.
And today i put in more effort than i normally do.
Heehee.
Dunno why also. Cos she praised me on Sat! DUH!

Yupp yupp.
So now, im bushed. ):
Shall go bathe now!
I STINK! HHAAAHHHA

♥ Tuesday, October 10, 2006

6:02 PM

Since tmr is E MATHS and im a bloody slacker..
I went to surf some sites!!!!!

Hahahhaa.
Just blogsurf.
Dont think the other way horh. x)

And guess what i found?
Some really really good videos. (:

LeeAnn Rimes - I Dream

Doesnt this title sound familiar?
Yupp.
You're right.

It's the song claimed to be written "originally" for our first Singapore Idol, Taufik Batisah.
You can say, "CHEY! LEEANN RIMES COPY US LORH!"

But guess guess!LeeAnn Rimes sang this in 2001, and Singapore Idol I was in 2004.
Unless the songwriter dreamt LeAnn Rimes singing this in his/her dream and decided to write the song again based on memory! (which is 99.5% untrue because most of the time we cant rmb our dreams, much say write an entire song out of it)

I thought that Singaporean song writers were so talented to come up with beautiful songs, and meaningful lyrics.
But once i found out, i think Singapore is gonna be sued for plagarism or something.
Now i really doubt that Hady's You Gave Me Wings are real.
It sounds too nice to be true.

Okayy.
Now for another video.
This video is short,
and SICK.

Im not even gonna say what this is about.
Watch it yourself.
It's disgusting.

P.S it has no blood or gore,
It's about a part of the human body.
Eww.

♥ Thursday, October 05, 2006

9:53 PM

~~SOCIAL STUDIES~~
screw.

~~BIOLOGY~~
screw.

~~ADDITIONAL MATH~~
doubly screw.

~~CORE ENGLISH LIT~~
screw screw screw.

~~ELECTIVE HISTORY~~

~~ENGLISH~~

~~CHEMISTRY~~

~~CHINESE~~

ELEMENTARY MATH

byebye chiang rai. ):
sorry for losing the $100 mummy.

:'(

♥ Wednesday, October 04, 2006

5:13 PM

i think i fell sick.
):

dunno why i keep feeling okay, then not okay, then okay.
is it because of the haze?
i got sensitive nose..
so should be bah.

the main school hall is damn cold lorhh..
nehneh.
during bio paper i keep sneezing away..
and i felt damn groggy.

somehow i dunno why i feel that i screwed up both papers..
cos ss i didnt study much..
and i dunno how to answer..
all the stupid formats.
crap lah.

then bio right..
alot ppl say quite hard..
or on the hard side..
but i found it quite easy.
and that's the scary part.
cos i finished it pretty quickly and slept for abt an hour plus.
plus, my answers were all pretty short. ):

i thought it was quite easy..
but after exam alot ppl say hard.
shit man.
i think i screwed it up too..
cos if u found it easy..
2 possibilities:
1) you really study and you know how to answer all
2) you anyhow answer and think that you know it all

right now i dunno which one i am.
:'(

haii.
lit tmr.
my eyelids are heavy and my nose is all runny and stuff.
cant bear to read through macbeth again.

GOODLUCK EVERYONE! (:

♥ Monday, October 02, 2006

6:38 PM

SORRY GLENN!!! ):

But,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D
Haha. Sorry horh. x))