♥
Thursday, February 01, 2007
I've numbed myself already.
Almost totally.
Dont feel
it anymore.
IT refers to alot of things.
Not just the anger. Not just the pain. Passion as well.
Anyway, just another happy event for me to get happy abt.
My dad got another laptop.
So now, there's like 3 lappies (bro, sis, dad) at home and 2 desktops (me, mum).
Siao boh. I think it's just crazy.
Although, im using my dad's lappie to type now. (it's very nice! :D)
Felt really happy today.
Maybe it's cause for once, i can concentrate and listen in class without being distracted.
I also could listen properly and my mind wasnt drifting away - to council, to dance.
I realized, if i kept thinking abt that matter, i would never be able to study in class anymore.
Cos i would be too involved in thinking of those freaks.
So, i've decided to settle these ppl after and in-between classes, at least i could concentrate in class more.
Right now, i've got mixed feelings.
I have 2 options:
FORGIVE&FORGET - spare the rod and spoil the child, or,
DONTFORGIVE&DONTFORGET - making me seem like a heartless monster.
I dont know right now.
My reason for wanting to step down from council was not only because of those anons, but because of other matters as well.
I spoke to Mr Chua already, and he didnt allow me to get the form to quit.
I think most ppl would actually think it's cos im too busy that's why i wanna quit, that is on my list of
why i wanna quit, but, it's
right at the bottom.
Im not as busy as i used to be.
Also, i want to apologise to those ppl who got scared by me.
I wanted to control my feelings, but i just couldnt, so i showed my weakest side so many times in just one day.
I know i frightened some ppl with my option to step down from council, and i apologise for that.
But, my decision remains. And hopefully most of you all can support me in my decision.
Dont worry, im not quitting (yet). It actually depends on the situation and how it develops.
Not many ppl actually know the reason for why i wanna step down, the only ppl who know are Mr Chua, and a friend who is not feeling very well now (not naming person so ppl wont bother him/her).
But i realized that this was a very complicated matter, and i knew that this would not be easy to solve.
Esp when ppl who know dont wanna tell.Right now, i have a rough idea of who the perpetrators are.
IM GIVING YOU GUYS A FINAL WARNING: IF YOU ADMIT AND APOLOGISE TO ME (WHEN IM IN A GOOD MOOD) NOW, YOU WILL NOT BE PUNISHED AS HARSHLY. I GIVE YOU ALL UNTIL NEXT WEEK (9/2/07 - FRIDAY) TO COME AND TELL ME. IF THE ENTIRE GRP COMES AND APOLOGISES TO ME, I WILL DROP THE MATTER. BUT, IF YOU DONT WANT TO ADMIT WHAT YOU DID WRONG, YOU GUYS KNOW THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR OWN ACTIONS.
Hint hint: dun admit no matter what. (:
Am i making a huge fuss of this?
YES I AM. So what you gonna do?
This does not involve only the juniors, this involves the seniors as well.
Thank you guys for standing up for me, and encouraging me right now.But, there are complicated matters, which im afraid when i tell you, you all will "bu shuang".I dont wanna sacriface friendship, just like what you all dont wanna do.That's why i wanted to step down.Lastly: I need to slp.
Goodnight.
So many bright lights that cast a shadowBut can I speak? Well is it hard understanding? I’m incomplete. A life that’s so demanding, I get so weak. A love that's so demanding, I can’t speak.I am not afraid to keep on living,I am not afraid to walk this world alone And I just hope you know,That if you say Goodbye today, I'd ask you to be true, Cause the hardest part of this, is leaving you...
♥
Thursday, February 01, 2007
I've numbed myself already.
Almost totally.
Dont feel
it anymore.
IT refers to alot of things.
Not just the anger. Not just the pain. Passion as well.
Anyway, just another happy event for me to get happy abt.
My dad got another laptop.
So now, there's like 3 lappies (bro, sis, dad) at home and 2 desktops (me, mum).
Siao boh. I think it's just crazy.
Although, im using my dad's lappie to type now. (it's very nice! :D)
Felt really happy today.
Maybe it's cause for once, i can concentrate and listen in class without being distracted.
I also could listen properly and my mind wasnt drifting away - to council, to dance.
I realized, if i kept thinking abt that matter, i would never be able to study in class anymore.
Cos i would be too involved in thinking of those freaks.
So, i've decided to settle these ppl after and in-between classes, at least i could concentrate in class more.
Right now, i've got mixed feelings.
I have 2 options:
FORGIVE&FORGET - spare the rod and spoil the child, or,
DONTFORGIVE&DONTFORGET - making me seem like a heartless monster.
I dont know right now.
My reason for wanting to step down from council was not only because of those anons, but because of other matters as well.
I spoke to Mr Chua already, and he didnt allow me to get the form to quit.
I think most ppl would actually think it's cos im too busy that's why i wanna quit, that is on my list of
why i wanna quit, but, it's
right at the bottom.
Im not as busy as i used to be.
Also, i want to apologise to those ppl who got scared by me.
I wanted to control my feelings, but i just couldnt, so i showed my weakest side so many times in just one day.
I know i frightened some ppl with my option to step down from council, and i apologise for that.
But, my decision remains. And hopefully most of you all can support me in my decision.
Dont worry, im not quitting (yet). It actually depends on the situation and how it develops.
Not many ppl actually know the reason for why i wanna step down, the only ppl who know are Mr Chua, and a friend who is not feeling very well now (not naming person so ppl wont bother him/her).
But i realized that this was a very complicated matter, and i knew that this would not be easy to solve.
Esp when ppl who know dont wanna tell.Right now, i have a rough idea of who the perpetrators are.
IM GIVING YOU GUYS A FINAL WARNING: IF YOU ADMIT AND APOLOGISE TO ME (WHEN IM IN A GOOD MOOD) NOW, YOU WILL NOT BE PUNISHED AS HARSHLY. I GIVE YOU ALL UNTIL NEXT WEEK (9/2/07 - FRIDAY) TO COME AND TELL ME. IF THE ENTIRE GRP COMES AND APOLOGISES TO ME, I WILL DROP THE MATTER. BUT, IF YOU DONT WANT TO ADMIT WHAT YOU DID WRONG, YOU GUYS KNOW THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR OWN ACTIONS.
Hint hint: dun admit no matter what. (:
Am i making a huge fuss of this?
YES I AM. So what you gonna do?
This does not involve only the juniors, this involves the seniors as well.
Thank you guys for standing up for me, and encouraging me right now.But, there are complicated matters, which im afraid when i tell you, you all will "bu shuang".I dont wanna sacriface friendship, just like what you all dont wanna do.That's why i wanted to step down.Lastly: I need to slp.
Goodnight.
So many bright lights that cast a shadowBut can I speak? Well is it hard understanding? I’m incomplete. A life that’s so demanding, I get so weak. A love that's so demanding, I can’t speak.I am not afraid to keep on living,I am not afraid to walk this world alone And I just hope you know,That if you say Goodbye today, I'd ask you to be true, Cause the hardest part of this, is leaving you...
