nanaGOESbananas

2007-11-13T23:51:00.001+08:00

New blog! :D

http://extradelicious.blogdrive.com

HUGS AND KISSES :D

2007-10-15T13:44:00.000+08:00

MY LAST POST ON THIS BLOG EVER:

MY FAMILY'S A SHITHOLE.
One week before O Levels, and i've lost all motivation to study.

2007-10-12T01:35:00.000+08:00

I guess since so many ppl share their prelim experience,
I shall just update with a little bit of my recent life.

Prelims was alright i guess,
Met my mum's expectations, (somehow) met my own expectations and met the sch's expectation of me - barely.
I depended on moderation to get my 12 and somehow it doesnt feel that great.
There was a chance i would get a 16, but cos of moderation and sheer tyconess, i got 12.

This is seriously overdue, it's gonna be Os in just a week and im still on my dad's lappie.
(My com broke down on me ._. right before prelims and before o levels. which is good. but my dad has a kickass laptop, so i still havent conquered the temptation.)

My maid went back to Indonesia for 3 weeks, so now im reduced to washing the dishes and washing & folding the clothes with my mum while balancing studying and meeting up with him with occasional surfing on the com.
What a sucky sucky year for me.

Sigh. I lost my chem tb too. (super lucky)
I searched high & low, and deployed my mum and maid to help me but to no avail.
So i got no choice, have to borrow his textbook & rely on my own crappy notes.
Im dead lah for chem. ):

Im gonna try and aim for VJC, but for the first 1 month, with 12 points, there's no way i can get in.
My goal since young was VJC, cos it's near my house and it's just this calling since i was in pri 2.
But most dreams cant be fulfilled for me, so, i'll just try my very best to get in after the 1st one month..
If not, SAJC here i come... ...

Sorry for the depressing post, my mood's around there right now..

and i know you're shining down on me from heaven~

2007-07-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

nanagoesbananas is on

-hiatus-

nothing but useless rambling.
if you are too busy studying, dont bother reading.
honestly.

Life is stressful;
Each day is chipping away a small part.
Leaving pieces behind,
Shattering your mental self,
And you try scratching the surface to stop the pain.

Four walls closing in on you.
Not being able to escape anywhere - Home, Relationship, Friends, School.
The four walls which you try to climb. But they keep getting higher and higher.
Pushing you down. Enclosing you in darkness.
You try and struggle to climb out of this small area, which is slowly being engulfed.
Try as you might, hands from the bottom pull you down, hands from the top push you down.

You cant escape.
Relieving your stress isnt a right idea either.
It might evoke even more unrest and displeasure.
No more discussion. You try to shut out the voices screaming in your head.
Small silent whispers to the world; Horrible loud shouting in your ears.
They're cornering you. There's nowhere to run. Nowhere to hide.
Hide. Anywhere you go it's nothing but a dead end, a dark corner.
No little spaces for you to hide and escape.
For you to just relax, to take a breather.

Even when you sleep, you try to shut it all out from you.
You toss and turn, sweat trickling down,
And to your dismay, even the pills dont work.
Discard all thoughts, try and try again.
In the end erupting in tears.
How useless. You cant even sleep - the simplest thing any human can do.
Eventually the tears weigh your eyelids down,
That prickling sensation is nothing more than what any drug can do.

Crumbling?
Falling apart?
For what?

In the end, all you get is a piece of paper.
That's all it takes to survive in society.
Screw your troubles; screw your mental state; screw how "sad" and "emotional unstable" you are.
Nomore pishposh.
Bury your head in the books.
Dig your grave.

2007-07-15T00:36:00.000+08:00

SHIT IM HOOKED ON HOUSE OF THE DEAD 4!!!!!
DAMMITDAMMITDAMMIT!

So far i've spent around $30 on that game alone.
TMD.
That gay game came out in 2005 but now then most arcades have..
Basket then now im spamming the machine with my money.
Wah piang.
No more arcade games till next month, if not i really dont need to eat lunch anymore.

2007-07-08T17:38:00.000+08:00

Heyhey everyone!
I went to the gym yesterday, and now my arms, tummy, thighs and random places are all aching. ):
This shows how unfit i am ok!
How to get A for NAPHA?! Roar!!

Anyway, yesterday was at the Xiangying.Huan Xing. CDS concert, and it's really very nice!
I think the first one got alot of underlying meaning,
The second one quite spas,
The third one was damn funny,
The last one has underlying meaning, spas, funny and overall my fave! :D
Hahaha!
Good job CDS. ((:

I dunno why now im missing London.
I guess it's just that the lifestyle there is alot more relaxed.
In Singapore you can just kinda feel the pressure surrounding you and everything.
I rmb at Stratford-Upon-Avon, when char and i went out to just loiter around the carpark,
We realized how the angmohs actually came up with such meaningful lyrics for their songs.
At that moment we were staring at the deserted highway,
And we just thought of the song Chasing Cars.
If i lay here,
If i just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world.

I guess now i should either be studying or doing my hmk.
During tuition, my teacher was telling us that even some 6-pointers were rejected from RJC.
To get in, you needed to get straight A1s, have a high post in CCA, and take higher chinese.
Then someone just casually said that SJI was affiliated to CJC.
And the students grimaced.

At that point of time i just kept really quiet cos i couldnt say anything.
Right now, im trying to FIGHT to get into SAJC.
I cant get into anywhere else.
SAJC's my best bet.
But if i cant get into SAJC, i'll go to CJC.
And be looked down upon by society and those high-rankers.
I'd even be looked down upon by some polytechnic students.
Then i realized, im not fighting to be the elite, im fighting to just survive.
This meritocratic system in Singapore really sucks,
Ppl like me really cant live here.

Im worrying my head off now.
Im scared that in the future i wont be able to earn my keep.
I'll be just a HOUSEWIFE and rot my ass off at home. BLEAH.

beyond the trees, above the clouds; i see before me a new horizon

2007-07-05T21:18:00.000+08:00

Yay! The council dance is finally D-O-N-E!
Whoooosh~
The steps have all been taught and stuff..
Now it's time for formations! (:

Jiayou 39th Student Council!
WE CAN DO IT!

39thSMEXCO proudly presents:

YEAH; TIL' THE DAWN!

AHS STUDENT COUNCIL INVESTITURE. 24.07.07

Nothing interesting going on in sch now bah i guess..
There are tests almost every single day.
In this week alone we had 5/6 tests.. Which all sucked. Rarrrr.
Next week im gonna be real busy with UK presentation and Council Dance..
Besides the hmk and tests and all the crap that are gonna be thrown to us.

VJC DSA dance audition is on the 23rd..
Stress stress.. Have to choreo two min of your own dance genre. ):
Next time in JC, if i dont manage to get to dance society, im gonna give up on dance in my life already.
Most likely, im gonna join canoeing or girls soccer. :D
Hahhaha. Dont ask me why. I just want to. (:

Prelims and Os are all coming soon sec fours!
We must all perservere for the oncoming hurdles alright. :D
After we finish them then can party.. Yayyyyy!!! (((:

Hahhaha.. Byebye ppl! Have to go and rest now.
Pretty pretty day :D

2007-06-22T14:24:00.001+08:00

Here's a poem for you all while i go off for chalet. :D

In case you cant read it:

The flower of my eye
Is none other than the LILY.
Queen of the Teochews

Superior to the 'Hi-chews' (chewing gum)

Hair so silky

Skin so milky!

Ever so beautiful

always make me full

Far surpasses elegance

sexy figure of substance!

Strong in times of danger

Scary when in anger.

Nevertheless still gentle

Always still a flower.

This was where they were when they wrote that poem:

They were sitting on that stone wall there.

Sighh. Good times. ._.

2007-06-21T13:52:00.000+08:00

BACK FROM UK!!!!!

Lol. Did anyone miss me?

The 10 days were quite enriching..
Quite gay..
Tiring..
And FUN. :D

The sceneries were really gorgeous,
The castles were really magnificient,
And the air was really chilly.

The food was sucky though. xP

Haiii. I miss home ssssoooo much!!
The 13 hour flight home was really horrible too.
Sighh.

But in UK, it was like really really fun.
With all the shopping, bus trips, hostel stays, place-visiting, poem-writing etc.
Glenn wrote like, 4 poems?
Most of them quite G-Y-A. x)

On the 1st night at the hostel Ms Koh received 6/7 complaints in one single night. xD
It was funny luhh. But we kena lectured in the morning. Hahhaha!

Time to update myself on current singapore affairs and COMPLETE MY HMK.
So far, the movies i wanna watch are:

Fantastic Four
Transformers
Surf's Up
Ratouille (?? Ra-ta-too-ee)
I Know Who Killed Me

:D
My prelims are gonna die liao. Hahahha!

Bye guys, update soon on UK trip (with pics hopefully).

2007-06-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

Laadeedoo!!!!!!!!!!!!
Zi-highing now.. Cos i finally watched SHREK 2!
Now my trilogy is complete!!!!! ((:

Leaving for UK at 9pm tmr!! :D
Who wants to send me off?
Hahahha x)

Flight details:
Meeting time: 2100
Time of flight: 2255
Place: Terminal One Row Five

for those ppl who wanna send their friends off. :D
anybody want me to buy anything for them?
leave a note ~~and i'll consider~~ yah? xDD

Life. DEDICATION! :D

2007-06-08T21:03:00.000+08:00

In about 2 - 3 days, i'll be leaving for UK already.
Sigh. For a long long long time.. TEN DAYS!

These two days have been like, hmk, hmk and more hmk. ):
Finished two emath papers.. But im still rushing like crazy..
No time to indulge in the Pokemon craze some ppl are getting into. x)
And i still dunno how Hengxin is so pro to finish Pokemon so fast!!!

When i was in Pri 4 i took like, one year with the help of a Guide Book (OHMYTIAN)!
And up till now, that cartridge hasnt been completed yet!
I rmb im still stuck in that godforsaken Elite 4 Cave!
TMD.
Then i rmb i dont want play liao. Lol. Gave up FOREVER... ...

BUT NOW! CANNOT PLAY FIRST!
MUST STUDY!
No more Pokemon till after Os. :DD

Im gonna apply for DSA to SAJC.
As for VJC, i guess, im gonna KIV it first.
Sigh. Dunno why, but when i see the attachments needed, i just feel like giving up almost immediately. ):
Hopefully, SAJC can accept me.. *fingers crossed*
So at least i can secure my JC life. For now. :D
DANCEDANCEDANCEDANCEDANCEDANCEDANCEDANCEDANCE MY WHOLE LIFE. ((:

~say goodbye~
!!EXCEPT FOR 39TH SMEXCO!!

This is now dedicated to the 22 members of the 39th SMExCo who went to A'Famosa! :D
Dedication time!! (:

GIRLS! :D

CHERMAIN - Bathing partner! (: Hahaha.. Our "hand" method is practical yeah? And you're not fat girl! You're skinny like a funky monkey! :DD Hahaha.. Love you!

CLARICE - CLARICE!(: I miss your bimboticness! Hahha.. Thanks for accompanying me on the bus trips, and sorry i keep pangsehing you, dont be angry k? Hahhaa.. I love you loads girl! :D

CRYSTAL - Dajie! Hahhaa.. Your highness is super contagious! :D I forgot to tell you that you look very pretty in pictures! And in real life also(: Hahaha.. Thanks for making this trip enjoyable! (:

HANLU - Hanlu! Thanks for being a dajie to me during this camp.. Caring for me and stuff, especially on the 2nd night. Thanks girl.. Love you! :D

SHIYA - Hey ~~horsey~~ girl! (: Thanks for making this trip extra enjoyable! :D Especially since you ~~let us ride your horse friends~~ provide another suanning platform.. Hahaha.. Sorry.. Dont get angry k? I still think you're very pretty! (:

WONG - DA MA! :D Thanks for providing me with advice and caring for me in Waterworld.. Hahhaa.. I felt a sense of being taken care of when im with you.. You're like my mummy! (: Love you loads.. Take care of that motion sickness! :D

GUYS! :D

ALOYSIUS - DANCING ~~QUEEN~~ KING!:D Hahhaa.. What can i say? I guess, you're the closest guy friend i have in this camp.. I also got to know you alot better. (: Take care of your leg and rock on! Hahaha.. Let us continue choreo and teaching when sch reopens yeah? Thank you so much dude! :D

BRYAN TOH - Tikopek. Hahaha.. Thanks for providing the horny funny jokes and caring for me on the 2nd night. Even though you could go with the others and get high, you chose to stand with me and pei wo low. Thank you alot alot alot! :D And next time i shall thrash you in pool! Hahaha.. This is not the last... ...

CHENGJUN - Hey dude.. I guess i kinda understood your character the most throughout this camp.. I always thought you were very dao, but now i know that you're actually very warm and caring, and you ~~love~~ okay let's scrap that. :D Thanks for your supersupersuperleng jokes on the 2nd night.. Hahaha.. Esp the siumai and tsunami one. Thank you dude.. For caring for me like an elder brother. (:

DARYL - I didnt really talk much to you during this camp, maybe cos you were always slping? Hahahha just kidding! (x Darlie Foo! Thanks for providing the really pretty picture and all the other forms of entertainment. :D Thank you alot!

EDISON - PIRANHABOY! Hahhaa.. It's always so fun to poke fun at you.. Especially abt E.Ts and piranhas. :D Apparently that has become our main form of communication yeah? You ahh.. Better not anyhow run around anymore! Very hard to find you one leh.. Like a little boy. Sigh. Thanks ahhh ahboy! xD

GLENN - HORNY SUCKER. Sighhhh. Dude.. Stop being so horny horh! Hahhaa.. Let's have heart-to-heart talks in the future okay dude? Enjoy your company alot! Thank you for the entertainment in the bus, YEAH! :D

GUOXIANG - Your zhaopai smile is like, the best ever? Hahhaha.. That forced, fake smile. x) Thanks for providing entertainment, and suanning me at any opportunity you get. Aaahhh sucker. :D But still, thank you! (:

JUNLE - MR PRESIDENT! And the guy always hanging out with the seven girls. You're like a jiemei to all of us already yeah! :D Hahhaa.. Thanks for handling practically EVERYTHING for us, and taking care of the 23 sec fours. Without you, i think we'd all be lost. Thank you for everything dude! Much loves! ((:

KEWEI - Silamngeow! You never talk alot in these 3 days horh! I know you like to crap alot one!!! x) Hahhaa.. Always sleeping at the back of the bus, dont be anti-social! You know we all like to suan you right? Lol.. Thanks for being there dude! :D

LEONARD - Hey L! (: Thank you for encouraging me on the 2nd night, i rmb you trying your hardest to cheer me up! Thank you alotalotalotalot! :D And i still rmb you during Family Day.. Hahha.. Always being there although you were scared too! Thank you dude! ROCK ON!! :D

SHAWN - Hey shawn! I know you were ssoooo unwilling to take that pic with me horh? Hhahaha.. You and kewei, always sleeping at the back of the bus. Sighhh.. MUST TALK MORE! AND HIGHHHHHHH SOMEMORE! :D Hhahaha.. Thank you for the memories dude! (:

VICTOR - JINFU! Dunno why im like so used to calling you that already.. And you respond somemore! Hahaha.. Dunno why i treat you like a little brother le.. Maybe cos you're skinny? (x I like your laughter, super gay! Lol.. Thanks for offering me your seat in the bus, so GENTLEMAN! xDD Hahahhaa.. Thank you so much dude! Really appreciate you being there! :D

WEISHENG - Your gayness never fails to surprise me. My impression of you is that you're super cool and suave, but actually you're just gay. LOL. Dajie say you hunky neh! Must be proud horh.. Hahhahah gaypok! See your blog, my eyes burn. Thanks for being around, and stay hunky, pls dont be G-Y-A le! x)

WEIYANG - TANK!!!!!!! Lol.. I agree with Aloy, you're shuaier than Tank. And why they call you Tank, i have no idea. But thanks for being my Chinese counterpart, otherwise i also dunno got such thing called "Hua Wen Ge". Hhahaha! And listen to more English songs!!!! Even "When You Say Nothing At All" also never hear before! HOW CAN? Hhahaha.. Thanks dude! (:

WENBIN - BITCHHHHHH!!!!!! You are like super bitchy can? Hahhaha.. And thanks for offering to be my bolster when i was feeling down. :D Thank you so much, and i really appreciate this friendship with you, dude! (: Hahahha.. Stay bitchy k? xD And i rock. So do you. But i still rock more. :DD

WILLIE - Willie Owww. I dunno why i never talk to you alot during this trip lehh.. Usually i got alot to crap to you one. Hahhaha.. But it's ok. :D I shall crap more to you in school.. And i shall take more pics with you too. Your smile is quite, non-existent. x)) Lol..

2007-06-06T14:10:00.000+08:00

Back from Malaysia

First of all, i'd like to thank everyone for making my 16th bday unforgettable. :D

SMSes: Mingpok, Char, Tabby, Socks, Shuhong, Hanlu, Molestine, Edmond, Vera, Phoebe, Zoe, Candice, Yuna, Huiling, Joween, Xuan Ming and Yapok! ((:
Thanks guys for the birthday wishes! Appreciate all of them. :D

In the morning had the sec four councillors and jiajie sing a birthday song for me in the council room.. Thanks guys for rmbing my birthday! I love you all! :D

Went out with the special someone for the whole day..
And had dinner at NYDC with special ppl.
Mummy, kor, jie, aaron, and bryan. :D
FAMILY(:

I got the best presents ever.

The next day, straight away set off for malaysia in the morning.
Didnt have time to say goodbye. to him):
And now im back!
Lol. So fast horh?

Overall the activities i did there were:

1st day - Zi-highed on bus. Ate brunch at Yongpeng 11am. Slept on bus. Review at conference room. Studied physics with a flying ball. Checkin. Dinner. Watched TV. Slept at guys' bungalow with Glenn and Chengjun in the same room (BUT DIFF BED) cos girls' bungalow was noisy.
-end of Day One -

2nd day - Breakfast. Rode horses (MISTY AND GALAXY! OHMYTIAN). Ate lunch. Went to Waterworld. Bathe. Eat dinner. Went to Cowboy Town. Koped games from the arcade. Watched a parade. Went to Lady Annabelle Karaoke where we played pool till we slept. Woke up. Went back to bungalow. Ate snacks. Slept.
-end of Day Two -

3rd day - Woke up. Had breakfast at this fly-infested gay place. Rode on bus. CAMWHORED LIKE SIAO. Had very nice lunch. SHOPPING AT MAHKOTA! :D. Sat on bus. CAMWHORE LIKE SIAO AGAIN. Slept. Woke up. Zi-highed. Reached Singapore. Said goodbye.
- end of Day Three -

To the sec four councillors of 2007:

Thank you guys for making my year in council so worthwhile and enjoyable. Although i havent been with you all through all four years or three years, but the two years i've been in it were one of the best things that i have ever experienced. Council is work, council can be hateful at times, but the friends i made there are those that i will never forget. On the 2nd night when i suddenly quietened down, i really appreciate those who helped me get my mood back. Alot of you all were concerned abt me, and i guess, that's when you realize that there are ppl out there who really care abt you although you're not related to them in any way. And the hardest part of forging this bond is when we all have to split up and go our separate ways in just a few more months. I havent been in council for very long, and yet, all of you can make me feel so welcomed. I thank you all sincerely from the bottom of my heart. I LOVE YOU GUYS ALOT.

THANK YOU 39TH SMEXCO.

Let's have a pretty pic! :D

and another pretty pic! ((:

setting off to UK in FIVE days~ )):

Bonus pretty pic:

Sorry Daryl, but i burst out laughing when i saw this pic. Classic.
P.S, dont be angry! x) Hahahha..

2007-06-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me!!!

credits: http://stickgal.blogspot.com

HAPPINESS! :D

2007-05-27T20:18:00.000+08:00

~~Can anyone tell me what these two drinks taste like at all?~~
Apparently it's all a scam!!!!! x)
Hahahhaa.. The drinks inside are for ppl who cant make up their mind aka fickle-minded and for those who are curious to try for the first time.
Luckily i never try.. If not sure be cursing the ppl who created this. (:

~~Because honestly, the can doesnt state any flavours whatsoever.~~
The ads whole day, "ANYTHING! WHATEVER!". LOL.
Especially the one with the guy and the inheritance one. DOUBLE LOL. xDD
Hahahhahahhaa.

2007-05-26T16:20:00.000+08:00

an army of marching poohs~

results came back yesterday.
luckily my term one results were better..
they pulled my L1R5 up by 2 points.
from 21 -> 19
sigh. at least it's not past 20.
which is the only good thing.

what's the use of a good praise report/testimonial for DSA when noone actually cares abt it?
ppl only care abt the damn academic results.

urgh. singapore sucks.
cant get into a jc.
fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffishballs.
I WANNA SO FREAKIN' GET INTO VJC DAAAAAMMIT.
URGHH. FRUSTRATED.

2007-05-24T19:23:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating at all for about a whole 10 days.
Been quite busy after MYEs, especially with council.
Sigh. My MYE results aer quite sucky.
And my dream to VJC is like, shattered already.
Out of reach.
Sigh. Forget it.

Over this one week there were alot of post exam activites..
All almost quite gay. :D

There was FAMILY DAY, which i didnt blog abt..
That happened almost a week ago.
It was fun - the sec 4s (supposed) last chance to organize a camp.
Everyone did a real great job. :D
Hahhaha.. Kinda missing it now.

There was Mini-Olympiad and all that crap.
Ermm.. These few days got Career Fair?
And there's the after-school Directors Of Schools meeting.
Sigh. Tired. x(

This holiday im not gonna be in Singapore most of the time..
Ooooh. Got lotsa activities. :D

~~28th May - ACSI Open House~~
29th May - Chemistry Tutorial
29th - 30th May - Council Selection Camp
31st May - TJC Dance Concert
1st June - HIGH TEA @ GOODWOOD PARK!; ~~4C class outing~~
2nd June - MY B'DAY! :D :D :D :D :D
3rd - 5th June - Council M'sia trip to A'Famosa.
5th - 10th June - Rot; Bum around.
11th - 20th June - UK TRIP! :D :D :D :D :D
20th June - Dance Prac
21st June - Dance Prac
21st - 23rd June - Bum; Rot around.
24th June - Char's B'day!
25th June - Sch reopen. ._.

Sigh.
Still have Dance pracs.. And council meetings.
And camps.
Sigh. Sigh. Triple sigh.

Tmr is PTC! :D
Lucky my mummy not going.
Yayness.
Hahhahaa.. Got appointment with Mummy tmr!
WHEEEEEEEE~!!!!

Byebye living souls.
let's not kill the karma
let's not start a fight
it's not worth the drama
for a beautiful liar

2007-05-13T18:05:00.000+08:00

http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/379511

Hahhaha. Boliaooo. x)
Can take this test thingie if you're bored like me.

._.

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY! :D

And Happy B'day to Estee the Pulchritudinous! ((:

2007-05-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

Fun fact:

The name of the 207th richest man in the world is ANURAG DIKSHIT.

Seriously.
Dikshit. *cough* :D :D

http://www.forbes.com/lists/2006/10/7XUE.html

WTH?!
The dude has an effed-up name. Lol.

Had CIP today after Lit paper! And i am in GROUP THREE! (:
I partnered with Phoebethehorrible and we are in charge of levels 10 and 11! :DD
Hahahha.. It wasnt very fun cos there werent alot of residents at home for phoebe to scare them with her horrible presence. x)

I was scaring her with HDB murder and rape stories and she was freaked out!! xDD
Hahaha.. Sorry horrible girl..
I promise not to scare you so much next time. :D

We scared this poor resident woman..
All thanks to phoebe and her ~~face~~ lovely presence. ((:

*me and phoebe finding doorbell*
Resident: 哇！小孩子，你们把我吓着了！
Me：??
Resident: 你们还穿得白白的.. 吓死人啊!
Me: ...
Resident: 以后不要吓人了！
Me: Errr. Orh. ...

Should be quite difficult for phoebe, she cant go anywhere without freaking ppl out. xD
Hhahahha.. Suanning mood now. x)
Socks and hengpok kept missing some parts of the HDB block..
It's quite complicated and messy.
Just lucky that the top two floors are totally 通.

Sigh. Feeling blessed.

This is the time to finish what you started.
This is no time to dream.
Give me your tired and poor and huddled masses.
You know they're yearning to breathe free.

this is my prayer.

2007-05-10T19:08:00.000+08:00

Yay! Im blogging again! :D
MYEs arent over yet.. It's cos tmr is core lit paper - gaypok CALLING OF KINDRED,
So i decided to slack for a while and review my papers. ((:

E MATH PAPER 1 - Cant recall much of it. But i can recall calling my mum and apologizing to her for screwing the paper up, although i cant rmb what happened. Still got Paper 2 on Tues. ._.

SOCIAL STUDIES - If i rmb correctly i think it was quite okay.. I think i forgot a factor for SEQ or something. Hopefully Aloy taught me the right answering skills.. If not i'll be so screwed. xD

CHEMISTRY PAPER 2 - I thought it was pretty easy. Got some damn diffcult and gay ques if i dont rmb wrongly. But other than that i think it was managable.

HIGHER CHINESE - Serious gayness. The question all ask around the same thing one! How the -toot- are you supposed to see which is which? Dammit. I feel aslp also.. Dunno why chinese has this tranquilizing effect on me.

ENGLISH - Never really had problems with english. The passage was quite cool too. :D The vocab - what is "nice"? ...

BIOLOGY - MCQ was fine. But when it came to paper 2 i was feeling woozy cos i hadnt eaten anything since morning. Somemore the hall was so cold!! I started feeling numbed and my hands refused to obey my brain. In the end i kinda gave up on the last few questions, my brain just didnt want to work anymore. Blahhh.. Im just praying that i dont fail.. At least just pass.. Sigh.

A MATH - I thought it was kinda okay.. But the numbers come out all weird weird one!!! x( The questions if diff is really diff; if easy then it's like D-U-H. Hopefully will do well, but dont really have alot of confidence. ):

HISTORY - STRUCTURED RULED LAH! Hahahaha.. SBQ was quite okay.. But i dunno what to write for parts (c) and (d), especially (d). Compare all the freakin' sources. ._. SEQ cos Ms Za help us le.. So it was okay. Pretty confident of this paper. ((:

E LIT PAPER 2 - This is my most screwed up paper. Period.

E MATH PAPER 2 -

CHEMISTRY PAPER 1 -

2 more to go!
:D:D:D

This year the MYEs seem to pass really quickly. Which is a good thing.
Just kinda sad that i didnt prepare much for it.. All REALLY last min chiong one..
Just ask the ppl who i disturb every morning in the council room..
Hahhaa.. Whole day just kachiao them only. x)

Thanks to all the smart-arses who helped me through this MYEs! (:
Lol.. Without you all i think i'd be EXTREMELLLY SCREWED. :D
Hahhaa.. Last min cramming of facts into my head in the morning before the papers.

The Mids have their effects on all of us.
For me:

1) fatigue - slp at like 12 and wake up at 4 to study (last min studying)
2) stoneness - due to fatigue
3) headache - read too much book

And the most impt thing!
According to the criterion of skincare..

PIMPLE OUTBREAK!!!!!!!!

2007-04-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

HIATUS
Havent updated in 10 days cos i've been busy studying! xD
If you believed that then i guess you dont know me that well do ya?

Been quite tired lately..
School's been hectic..
Rushing to catch up with stuff that i've lagged behind cos of SYF..

MYEs are just around...
NOW?
Haiii. How depressing.
No rest at all! Urghhhh... ...

Sigh. Alot of things on my mind now.
Disappointment, betrayal, anxiousness, tiredness, stress..
Lord help me.
I'll end my hiatus after MYEs..
See ya'll around! (:

STUDY HARD EVERY ONE, AND GOD BLESS.

2007-04-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

Im really freaking out.

FIVE more days
5 more days only.
Oh. My. Gosh.

After reading Estee and Edison's blogs abt Guitar getting Gold With Honours,
Im feeling really pressurized now.
It's like, i really want to experience that feeling of all your hard work being paid off..
I dont want another repeat of my last SYF experience.

"Number 52, Anglican High School, Silver."

At that split second i rmb Valerie, Zhilin, Jazreel (etc) bursting out in tears..
Then slowly, but surely, i started to feel a overwhelming surge running up my nose..
Then i cried. ._.

"Silver" is like, ringing in my ears now.
Im really scared to hear that word.

I want to go hear the results!!!!!!!
But it's like Paper One that time.. So cannot go!
URGHHHHH.. I think i wont be able to concentrate during Paper Ones..
Haiiii..
I really cant handle stress. Darnit.

2007-04-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

I've missed TWO days of school.
MYEs are pretty much screwed.
Urghh.

Been coughing for around a week already..
The sore throat's getting better, but i keep coughing.
So today! I decided to go see a doc. :D
Got meds, which make me drowsy.
They are SUPER effective.
Im coughing lesser now, but i think the meds give me cramps. ):

Luckily i've been keeping up to date with all the stuffs in sch.
Pleasant things, spastic things, and horrible bad things. )):
Got hmk to do and TESTS to revise for.
Gosh, i feel so sec four - BUSY!

Chair Dance SYF's over.
Results out on Wednesday.
Haii. Stress stress stress.
They dont do well - Stress.
They do well - Stress.
No matter what - Also stress.
What a sad life. ._.

Wanted to slowly post pics of SYF day on my blog.
But lo and behold, im using my dad's laptop. :D
SAD! xDD
Hahhaha..

Listening to a song abt the Chernobyl Disaster.
The Chernobyl Disaster was an accident where a nuclear plant in Ukraine (right?) exploded due to negligence.
The place is now a Ghost Town.
SAD. )):

Mama where are you
Papa where did you go
Where are all the children who used to play here
Only Heaven knows

Sighh..
I love my life now. :D
It's perfect. :D :D :D

2007-04-16T22:28:00.000+08:00

GREAT JOB GUYS! :D
Now just NINE more days till the next one. x(

Okay, besides the entire day spent at the Tower Hall..
Morning devotion was so freakin G-A-Y!
(By gay i mean happy. :D)

Mr Chen shared on Morning Devotion today.
He started off with a joke:

Once there was this hunter who hunted bears.
One day, he managed to trap this bear.
However, this bear outsmarted him, and in turn, the hunter became the hunted.
In that moment, the hunter prayed to God, and God answered.

God: You have never believed in Me, why should I save you now?
Hunter: Lord, if You save me, i will believe in You. Make me Christian if You want to be convinced.
God: Nahh. I dont think so.
Hunter: *thinks for a moment and rmbs a commandment! (Thou shalt not kill): Oh okay! Then can You at least make the bear a Christian?
God: Well, okay.

All of a sudden, the bear bows down and prays, and the hunter thinks he is safe.

Bear: I thank thee Lord, for this meal.

I burst out laughing after this joke lorh!
Although SLIGHTLY sacrilegious, it's still funny lah.
x))

Then afterwards Mr Chen continued.
Wah piang.

Mr Chen: I have a confession to make. I have never killed a man.
Me: ... Ooohhhhkayyyy... ...
Mr Chen: However, i have read through orbituaries with great pleasure.
Me: o.0 What the...

I really think Mr Chen is quite spastic. xD

2007-04-15T16:58:00.000+08:00

You know sometimes,
You just gotta respect a person's privacy.
Dont go snooping into their personal life.

10 more days.
To those ppl whose SYF is tmr:
RMB TO SMILE ON STAGE! :D

2007-04-13T22:37:00.000+08:00

I FEEL EMO!!!

Ahhh. So gay. x)

Chair dance ppl SYF on Monday.
Haiiii.. *massages head*
Stress stress stress... ...

Homecoming SYF on 25th!
Urghhh.. Stress stress stress.

And blahh, im sick.
Hopefully all these finish in a beautiful picture. :D

2007-04-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

Im gonna die after this. :D

LOOK AT THESE TWO SPASTIC PPL!! x))

TAKE ONE: FAIL
took the pic too early. x)

TAKE TWO: FAIL
minghui jumped out of screen!!!

TAKE THREE: SUCCESS! :D

This is their fave pic. GAYPOKS!!!!!! xD

FIFTEEN MORE DAYS!

Today was quite depressing.
Urghh. But we all gotta move on.
I can seriously identify with that pain.
I really can. That twist, then a stab.
Then a tear. Then another stab. Before another tear.

Hearts can be smashed - They can be mended.
Tears can be shed - They can be remade.
But, BONDS, can never be broken.

Be content with what you have in life right now.
Because you never know when the next shittiest thing will come.
ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE! (:

Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told Him all along
And pray to God He hears you
And I pray to God He hears you

2007-04-09T20:23:00.000+08:00

YAYYY!!
HYPER MOOD TODAY! xDD

i think you're fine you really blow my mind! :D
LMNT - Juliet

Hahahhaha!
Siaooo liaooo.
Listen crazy song make ppl go crazy! ((:

Im just going crazy thinking of SYF (16 more days! o.0),
MYES! (STRAIGHT AFTER SYF),
And like lots and lots of stuff!!!!!
WAHHAHAHHAA.
Siao liao.
Looking forward to UK trip (in a way)..
WOOHOO! :D

Zi-highness.
Im gonna injure myself soon!
ZOE STOP HIGHLIGHTING!!! xDD
Hhahaha!
Chair Dance ppl jiayou!
SEVEN more days! :D

2007-04-08T20:55:00.000+08:00

Looking back..
Time HAS passed.
Really really quickly.

Talking with bryan last night..
Kept quiet most of the time..
Lots of stuff came rushing back to my head.

Somehow, music is the only way i can rmb everything that has happened to me.
Sec one and two..
So many karaoke sessions in class with wong, char, wenbin, clarice, crystal..
Haii. Gone.

Experiences, memories, processes, journeys,
Good? Bad?
All a part of me.
I do regret some stuff that i did.
Some stuff, no matter how much pain and emotional turmoil they brought me,
Will never cause me to regret whatever i did.

But the most impt thing is..
Do we learn?
I do love you, you know that. ((:
If anyone else reads this, haiyo dont kachiao me pls.
so long and goodnight. (:

2007-04-05T21:04:00.001+08:00

I FEEL REALLY HAPPY NOW! :D

BYEBYE. ((:

English websites for quotes! :D

http://www.readingrockets.org/books/fun/quotable
http://www.deblogan.com/quo2.html
http://www.richmond.k12.va.us/readamillion/readingquotes.htm

If there is anything wrong with the links,
Tag on my blog or tell me via msn! (:

2007-04-04T22:55:00.000+08:00

TIRED!

Must...
Stay up...
For.....

AMERICAN IDOL!!!! :D

Urghh.
Kinda beat now.
Sch was quite.. Okay today.

Joween argued with Chai, ok.
Ran a few rounds, not ok.
Went back to class, not ok all the way.

Dance, alright. :D
Cos a few ppl werent there. ((:
So it made my life reallllly happy.
Hahahaha!

Should i let it go?
I wanted to, but they refused to.
Wage war? Or call a truce?
Glenn.. Advise me..
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I realized that im like totally overstressing myself for SYF.
As in, now that CO has GOLD, every single CCA going for SYF is stressing out.
Band, CD, ED, HO, Guitar, DANCE..
Omgoshhh..
Sometimes it pumps me up..
But sometimes it just pulls me down.

I guess minghui's feeling it too.
But, Global Classroom, and Homecoming..
I dunno! Urghhhh.. *messes hair*

Will i feel happy if we get gold (with honours also can :D)?
Will i feel sad if we get silver?
Will i feel sad or happy to leave dance?
I have no idea..
What if.. CERTIFICATE OF PARTICIPATION?
That'll be my worse nightmare.

And im like.. Thinking of lots of stuff..
Concerning council.. And dance.
And i really dont know what to do.
Studies.. Im getting really frustrated..
I really cant.. Study like i want to.

Seriously losing sleep.

I love alternate Thursdays.
SCHOOL AT 8.50AM.
Yayy.

2007-04-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

WATCHED TMNT TODAY!!
WOOTS! :D

Now i wanna watch STOMP THE YARD!
CHARMAINE.. *hint hint*

Anyway! I managed to rmb who is who in TMNT! :D
(I know ppl already know lahh.. Im lag! xD It was during my bro and sis' time okay!)

LEONARDO!
RAPHAEL!
MICHAELANGELO!
DONATELLO!

Hahahha!
I GOT IT RIGHT RIGHT? xDD
I LOVE MICHAELANGELO!
I think he's super funny. x)
Dude! That looked like your mum!

Enjoyable day today.
Kinda forgetful.
Forgot ALOT of stuff. x(
Oh well.

HOPE TMR DONT FORGET ABT CHINESE PROVERBS AND CHEM SPA. (:
my life rocks now. :D

2007-04-01T17:10:00.000+08:00

Next time want to tag leave your name.
Name. Ming zi. Nama.
Get it?
Unless i know who you are, then you are obliged not to leave your name.

But if you're HUMJI, i repeat, HUMJI,
Then dont bother tagging.
Cos they'll just be deleted.
Not even read.
Just deleted.
If you're trying to spoil my day, or want to encourage me or whatever,
Just leave your name.
Because if you feel that there's nothing wrong with whatever you're saying,
Then why bother to mask yourself?

If you tag anonymously,
Then YOU KNOW that there are consequences for whatever you are saying.
If there are consequences, then obviously whatever you are saying is wrong.
And if you know that you're wrong and still tag, that proves something - YOU ARE JUST PLAIN DUMB!
Like DUUUHH.

To those who tag anonymously just for fun, or encouragement or whatever thing,
Just tag your name, because there is obviously nothing wrong in you trying to be supportive.
Unless you support me against your friends, then like that is just being plain HUMJI lah.
Dunno how to stand up against your friends. *tsk tsk shakes head*

Anyway, out of context,
DIFFERENTIATION/INTEGRATION OF SIN, COS, TAN, LOG, LN E IS CRAP!
Grrrrr. I totally suck at those.

Urghh Bio SPA tmr.
And out of sssooo many chapters to choose from,
Must do EXCRETION which is like my 2nd worse chapter (next to Nutrition in Plants gosh).
I really dont like that chapter. ):

And then tmr got Ting Xie somemore!
Urghh.
JIAYOU EVERYONE! ((:

2007-03-31T23:30:00.000+08:00

Just came home from church. (:
Learnt this new song - Hear Us From Heaven
Man, it rocks! :D
Hahhaha

HEAR US FROM HEAVEN

Verse:
Lord hear our cry
Come heal our land
Breathe life into our dry and thirsty souls
Lord hear our prayer
Forgive our sin
And as we call on Your name
Would You make this a place for Your glory to dwell

Chorus:
Open the blind eyes
Unlock the deaf ears
Come to your people
As we draw near
Hear us from Heaven
Touch our generation
We are Your people
Crying out in desperation

Bridge:
Hear us form Heaven
Hear us from Heaven
Hear us from Heaven

~ church ended at 6.30pm ~

Went to Plaza Sing! :D
Wanted to watch TMNT,
or Stomp the Yard,
or Primeval,
or Meet the Robinsons!

BUT THE TIMINGS ALL SALA!!! ._.
Haiii.
So settled with just walking around.

OOH!
And today is like, the 1st time i ate Yakun Toast. xD
Quite sad lah.. But true.
The half-boiled egg is really good..
But the toast is like..
*so-so*
Oh well, i cant appreciate good stuff. :DD

And ppl,
Pls try to like, keep it under wraps..
Thanks..

the smile on your face lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
the touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever i fall
you say at best, when you say nothing at all. (:

2007-03-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

post #268!

:D
Ooooh.
Have been blogging alot lately horh? (:

Urghh.
Dunno why i cant concentrate in class now..
It's like.. I dont quite understand what the teachers are talking abt now. x((
WWHHHYYYY... ...?
Haii. Need to start studying already.
And training!
GONNA GET HARD-ROCK MUSCLES! :DD

WAHAHAHAH! x))
THROBBING VEINS AND BROAD BROAD SHOULDERS!
WHOOSH~!

Okay. Siao liao.
I watched Pocahontas just now. ._.
Although im already 15 years and 9 (coming to 10) months..
I STILL LIKED IT! xDD
I'd rather die tmr,
Then live a hundred years without knowing you.
SO GAN DONG! x))
Haahhhaa.

If I Never Knew You

If I never knew you
If I never felt this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be

And if I never held you
I would never have a clue
How at last I'd find in you
The missing part of me.

In this world so full of fear
Full of rage and lies
I can see the truth so clear
In your eyes
So dry your eyes

And I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

If I never knew you
I'd be safe but half as real
Never knowing I could feel
A love so strong and true

I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow we'd make the whole world bright
I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong
All they'd leave us were these whispers in the night
But still my heart is saying we were right

If I never knew you
There's no moment I regret
If I never felt this love
Since the moment that we met
I would have no inkling of
If our time has gone too fast
How precious life can be...
I've lived at last...

I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow we'd make the whole world bright
I thought our love would be so beautiful
We'd turn the darkness into light
And still my heart is saying we were right
We were right

And if I never knew you
If I never knew you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Empty as the sky
Never knowing why
Lost forever
If I never knew you

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This song is so nice!
Hahaha.. Just look at the lyrics. (:

And Gwen Stefani's on TV!
BYEBYE! :D

2007-03-27T20:02:00.000+08:00

Went out with Char today to TM! (:

Wanted to watch STOMP THE YARD but the timings of the show were waaayyyy off. xD
So in the end..
Watched NOTHING. x)

Sian diaoo.
I wanna watch TMNT and STOMP THE YARD! :D
Hahhaha..
But this week is super busy..
Except Thursday. x)

Wednesday: Dance & Council Meeting
Thursday: Thursdays with Lammy
Friday: CCA
Saturday: Church
Sunday: Tuition

Urghh!
Ssssooooo tired.... x(

To yoooo~~~:
Obviously you have no idea what's going on. (:
Or you're a junior who's trying to act like a passerby. x)

Cant reply to every tag though..
Hahahha.. Dont know why i just have a tendency to reply those who anyhow tag. xD
AND...!
I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS! :D :D

Who said, who said
I cant be superman
I say, I say
That I know I can. (:

2007-03-26T22:28:00.000+08:00

Lalalalalalala i cant hear you.

It's been happy.
Really happy.

Pardon all the empty posts (xD) in the previous posts.
Wonder what's wrong with blogger. (x

Oh well.
Feeling kinda..
MOODSWINGY today.

My maroon braces make my teeth look BLOODY. :D

2007-03-25T16:51:00.000+08:00

The only thing i ever did to "outrage" the council juniors was to poke my nose into the stupid PI even though i didnt have to.
The other thing i did to "outrage" them was to give them my freaking honest comments on how i really saw them as an 'outsider' of council and not as a 'friend' of them.
I told them how i really saw them from an outsider's opinion and bloody hell, i even asked my friends what they thought of these ppl and they gave me feedback too.
So i freaking went to compile every bloody information i got and i told them straight up what i felt and how other ppl viewed them, and they take my opinion as being effing biased.

And furthermore, when they came into the AVT after waiting for so long,
NONE of the SMExCo wanted to say anything.
So what do you want me to do?
I didnt want the fucking interviewees to have wasted their "precious" time outside.
So i spoke up for all the SMExCos, whatever they said during the prior meeting.
So fuck! I freaking tell u opinions and waste my fucking saliva and in the end get maliciously attacked by all of the juniors.

IS THAT FAIR TO ME?

Crystal Chan spoke too.
And why isnt she attacked?
COS SHE IS IN EXCO.
AND IM NOT, IM JUST A NORMAL MEMBER.
And by talking too much this is what i get.

To the SMExCo:
I help you all during PI, the least you can do is help defend me.
But you all didnt, you all care more abt "junior welfare".
Ever heard of PEER HELP? PEER WELFARE?
PEER DEFENCE?
Obviously you all care more abt the juniors, helping them "tide through" than helping me.
By helping them, you make them hate me more, and attack me more.
So obviously there isnt any PEER SUPPORT in this case,
So fine. I really dont care anymore.

I shouldnt have freaking gone into council.
If you wanted me to go in and do my part, what fucking part do you want me to do?
Help the SMExCo and go for meetings to plan activities?
Or do you want me to be like you all, dont go for any meetings at all and just DO WHAT YOU'RE TOLD?
Well, of course fucking not.
Because council trains you to be leaders.
And i dont see how just doing what you're told is being a fucking leader.
I see a leader as someone planning the work behind-the-scenes while going for meetings.
Not just playing the games, not just being an orientation leader.
But by being the freaking planner.

And second of all, why do my dance juniors dislike me?
Oh, maybe it's cos i have been instructed by my teacher to fucking SCOLD THEM?
It's not like i like to fucking scold ppl right.
It's not like i wanna make them dislike me.

But fucking hell!
All i did was do what my teacher told me (for dance) and give my fucking honest opinions (for PI).
In what fucking way do you call that offensive?

If you think all my juniors dislike me, fine.
But whether the seniors dislike the juniors, that's another matter.

ASK!
ASK EVERY FUCKING SEC 4 IN DANCE!
ASK THEM ABT THAT PARTICULAR GROUP.
JUST ASK.
YOU SEE WHAT THEY SAY.

AND ABOUT COUNCIL JUNIORS,
FINE. GOT PPL DEFEND THEM.
BUT IS THERE ANYONE TO HELP ME?
NO. ALWAYS "CHILL.. RELAX.."
And then the matter fades into obscurity.
Ppl expect me to fucking chill and fucking relax everytime i see a fucking junior post a fucking bad comment, or insult abt me?
Well, i cant take it hands down.
IM NOT GONNA CHILL, IM NOT GONNA RELAX.
THIS MATTER ISNT GONNA REST.

Alot of ppl treat this stupid thing as a fucking joke.
Well it's not.
And the last straw came when jinni accused me of shedding crocodile tears after lao shi lectured us.
Minghui cries badly, it's real.
I cry, and it's fake.
I didnt cry out of sadness, i cried out of anger.
And you have to fucking right to fucking tell me that i shed crocodile tears because you are not in my fucking shoes and you dont know the fucking stress im fucking facing.

JOKE! JOKE AROUND ABT THIS MATTER.
But it's not a fucking joke.
Maybe that's how everyone treats things now..
AS A HUGE MUTHAFUCKING JOKE.
Well it's not.
And "CHILLING".. Is not exactly that way you handle it.

You can tag.. And joke.. And ask me to relax and chill and say i still have "him"..
Well thanks.
Dont treat this matter seriously.
Fine. Dont. Cos it's not YOUR problem, or that's what you think.

But this girl is under your COMMITTEE.
She is under you and you should try and handle this problem together with the other comm head.
Not to just tell me to "relax".
Because i cant.
Because someone just accused me of being FAKE.

Tell me how you feel when you're genuinely sad and angry.
Your friend is crying hopelessly, and your heart cant take it anymore.
You cry, yes you do.
But SOMEWAY OR ANOTHER, A BUNCH OF CHILDISH, SPOILT AND PATHETIC PPL HAVE TO STATE THAT YOU ARE FAKING YOUR EMOTIONS,
THAT YOU ARE CRYING JUST BECAUSE THE OTHER PERSON IS CRYING.

FAKING YOUR EMOTIONS.
FAKING.
FUCKING FAKING.

HOW WILL YOU FUCKING FEEL?!?!?!?

I dont feel a sense of righteousness in this stupid matter.
There is no ONE righteous person who can differentiate what's right and what's wrong.
Everyone's backbone is gone.
Invertebrae.

Btw, joking abt "him" and "me", whatever the fuck you mean,
Is fucking childish.
Sec fours, grow up.

And BEn, whichever BEn you are..
You are not in my situation, so you really dont need to criticize me for using the word fuck in every fucking sentence of mine.
It's my post, it's my keyboard, it's my life.
You dont know MY LIFE.
My standard of English is indeed bad.
How abt you try and find a substitute for every "fuck" or "fucking" that i use?
See if your command of English lords over others.

Oh and btw, it's "exaggerate". Not "exagerrate". (:

2007-03-25T02:27:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK MAN I CANT FUCKING STAND IT ANYMORE.

JINNI LOO.
I CANT STAND YOU ANYMORE;
YOU AND YOUR IMBECILITY.

YOU CAN SAY THAT I FORCED ALL MY FUCKING TEARS OUT.
YOU WANNA TRY AND TAKE MY FUCKING PLACE?
I FUCKING CRIED IN MY MUM'S CAR AND DIDNT STOP CRYING UNTIL I SLEPT.
YOU THINK YOU FUCKING KNOW?
YOU THINK YOU CAN FUCKING SEE HOW I AM AFTER THE FUCKING INCIDENT?
WELL YOU CANT.
COS YOU'RE BLIND.

YOU CAN SAY WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT.
SAY THAT IM FAT, UGLY, WHATEVER THE SHIT YOU WANT
BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT?
IM SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THIS FUCKING SHIT.

YOU ARE THE FUCKING JUNIOR AND IM THE FUCKING SENIOR.
I DONT EXPECT YOU TO FUCKING RESPECT ME BUT AT LEAST FUCKING HELL GET YOUR FUCKING FACTS RIGHT.
I KNOW THAT YOU'RE REFERRING TO ME.
YOU DONT HAVE TO DENY IT.

EVERYONE OUT THERE THINKS IT'S BOTH OUR FAULT.
BUT THE FUCKING FACT IS THAT IT IS ALL YOUR FAULT.
I TRY TO TAKE FUCKING PITY ON YOUR AND THEN YOU FUCKING SAY I AM SO FUCKING "NOBLE".
WHAT THE FUCK.
I DONT NEED THIS FUCKING SHIT YOU FUCKING PIECE OF CRAP.

YOU KNOW WHO SUGGESTED TO PUMP ALL OF YOU 100?
NOT ME.
YOU KNOW WHO SAID YOU DIDNT OPEN THE WINDOWS PROPERLY?
NOT ME.
YOU KNOW WHO SUGGESTED THE PUNISHMENTS FOR ALL OF YOU?
FUCKING NOT ME.
WHO REDUCED THE PUNISHMENT TO 50 AND YOU FUCKING SHOOT ME?
ME.
AND WHAT DO I GET?

SO I DONT FUCKING SEE WHY I AM THE ONE WHO KENA ALL THIS FUCKING CRAP FROM ALL OF YOU.
IS IT COS OF COUNCIL?
THEN SCREW IT.

I HAVE NEVER FUCKING OFFENDED YOU IN MY FUCKING LIFE.
I PUMP YOU?
FUCK MAN, I'D RATHER PUMP A MONKEY'S ASS.
FUCKING HELL!
I FUCKING HELP YOU AND THEN THIS IS HOW YOU FUCKING PAY ME BACK.

I CANT FUCKING STAND IT ANYMORE COS PPL KEEP SAYING IT'S MY FUCKING FAULT.
WELL IT'S NOT.
I ALREADY TRY TO STAND THEM UNTIL I DONT EVEN WANNA GO CLOSE TO THEM AND JUST LEAVE THEM ALONE.
BUT THEY JUST CANT FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE.

I TORTURE MY JUNIORS?
FUCK MAN. WHEN THE FUCK DO I EVER TORTURE THEM?

I PUNISH THEM WHEN IM TOLD AND THAT MAKES ME THE FUCKING BAD GUY.
IM SICK OF BEING THE FUCKING BAD GUY.
IM SICK OF THE FUCKING PI AND IM SICK OF ALL THIS SHIT ALREADY.

FINE. YOU WANT ME TO BE THE FUCKING BAD GUY?
FINE.
KICK ME OUT FROM COUNCIL, FOR ALL I CARE.
BECAUSE IF COUNCIL CAN PRODUCE PPL LIKE JINNI LOO,
THEN COUNCIL CAN JUST FUCK OFF, EAT SHIT AND GO DIE.

I AM NOT TAKING DOWN THIS FUCKING POST BECAUSE I DONT SEE THE NEED TO.
I WANNA SEE JUSTICE DONE TO ME.
I WANNA SEE SHE GETS WHAT SHE DESERVES.
I WANNA SEE HER DIE. HER SOCIAL LIFE RUINED.

IT'S EITHER HER SIDE, OR MY SIDE.
THERE IS NO.. NEGOTIATOR.

AND IF YOU STILL DEFEND HER,
IM SORRY.
YOU'RE NOT MY FRIEND ANYMORE.

WORDS IN WHITE, OR IN MY CASE BLACK, ARENT MEANT TO BE SEEN.
ISNT THAT WHAT YOU SAID?
I havent used that word in a long time.
You forced me to.

wonder how many friends im gonna lose.
but i really dont give a damn anymore.

2007-03-25T02:07:00.000+08:00

AND WHILE IM IN THIS RANTING MODE EVERYTHING IS GONNA COME OUT JUST THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE.
I'VE HELD THIS IN FOR SO DAMN LONG I CANT HOLD IT IN ANYMORE.

FIRST OF ALL.
COUNCIL.

WHY DO YOU ALL THINK I HAVENT BEEN GOING FOR SO MANY FUCKING MEETINGS?
YOU KNOW WHY?
COS OF THE PI, I'VE FUCKING INCURRED THE WRATH OF ALL THE FUCKING JUNIORS.
THEY COMPLAIN, THEY CURSE, THEY SPAM MY BLOG.
EVEN THOSE THAT WERE OKAY WITH ME BACK THEN ARE NOW NOT FUCKING TALKING TO ME.
THEY FUCKING LISTEN TO THEIR FRIENDS AND THEN THEY'RE FUCKING ANGRY WITH ME FOR WHATEVER FUCKING THINGS I SAID TO THEM IN MY OWN FUCKING HONEST OPINION.

CRYSTAL CHAN WAS RIGHT.
I DIDNT NEED TO SAY SO MANY THINGS.
I DIDNT FUCKING NEED TO FUCKING STAY BACK ON THAT FUCKING DAY TO FUCKING GET FUCKING CRITICIZED BY THE FUCKING INTERVIEWEES.

IM NOT LOOKING FOR ANYTHING IN RETURN.
BUT AT LEAST LEAVE ME IN PEACE OR A LITTLE FREAKING RECOGNITION IN THIS FUCKING THING.
IM FINE WITH BEING A NORMAL MEMBER WORKING WITH YOU ALL,
BUT THEY'RE NOT.
IM FINE WORKING MY ASS OFF GOING FOR MEETINGS AND PLANNING GAMES AND AT THE END OF IT ALL GET THE SAME POINTS FOR COUNCIL AS THE CHINA SCHOLARS WHO DONT DO ANYTHING AT ALL.
IM FUCKING FINE WITH ALL OF THIS.

BUT I DONT FUCKING NEED THE FUCKING JUNIORS TO FUCKING PISS ME OFF AND MAKE MY FUCKING LIFE FUCKING MISERABLE.
I REALLY DONT FUCKING NEED IT.

SECOND OF ALL.
DANCE.

I CANT FUCKING STAND THE FUCKING JUNIORS ANY FUCKING MORE.
READ THE LAST POST.

DANCE AND COUNCIL.
I WANT TO FUCKING BALANCE BOTH OF THEM BUT I CANT FUCKING CANT COS OF THE FUCKING JUNIORS POKING THEIR FUCKING NOSES IN EVERY FUCKING THING I FUCKING DO.
I AM FUCKING BUAY SONG NOW.
I REALLY CANT HOLD IT IN.
IF I FUCKING HOLD ALL THESE IN IM GONNA FUCKING BURST AND SLASH MY WRIST AND IT'S NOT LIKE THAT FIRST TIME IM FUCKING DOING THAT.
BUT NOW IM NOT SO FUCKING STUPID TO FUCKING DO THAT BECAUSE I HAVE A LIFE.

I PUT DANCE IN FRONT OF COUNCIL AND KENA BY COUNCILLORS.
I PUT COUNCIL BEFORE DANCE AND I KENA BY TEACHER.

SO WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT ME TO DO?
FUCKING SLICE MY BODY IN HALF?
IT'S NOT GONNA FUCKING HELP COS I'LL BE FUCKING DEAD BY THEN.

IF YOU CANT STOP A JUNIOR FROM USING VULGARITIES,
THEN WHAT CAN YOU DO TO ME?

KICK ME OUT?
FINE!
BECAUSE AT LEAST I'LL HAVE MY MIND AND MY BODY INTACT.
SO YOU CAN FUCKING SUE ME FOR WHATEVER FUCKING THING I FUCKING SAID.
YOU CAN GET ANGRY, IM NOT SAYING YOU CANT.
BUT FIND MY FAULT IN THIS ENTIRE FUCKING MATTER.

THAT TIME I REALLY WANTED TO QUIT COUNCIL.
YOU KNOW WHY?
IT WASNT COS I COULDNT TAKE THE SPAMMING THING.
THAT'S NOT IT.

IT'S COS I COULDNT TAKE IT BEING INSULTED HANDS DOWN.
I COULDNT TAKE IT THAT PPL KNEW WHO THE PERPETRATORS WERE BUT REFUSED TO TELL ME.
BUT, THE PERSON HAD TO CHOOSE TO SIDE ME OR THE PERPETRATORS.
EITHER OR.
I DIDNT WANT THE PERSON WHO KNEW TO TELL ME AND CAUSE A PROBLEM WITH THE PERSON WHO TOLD HIM.SO I CHOSE TO JUST QUIT.
TO LOOK LIKE I FUCKING GAVE UP AND I FUCKING LOST.

I DIDNT WANT MY FRIENDS TO LOSE THEIR FRIENDS ON THE EITHER SIDE.
WHY NOT JUST LOSE ME?
I DIDNT REALLY CARE THEN.

ALL THOSE ENCOURAGERS ON MY BLOG..
SOME ARE FAKE, SOME ARE REAL.
SOME ACTUALLY KNEW WHO THOSE PPL WERE, BUT REFUSED TO TELL ME.
AND I TOOK IT.. THAT THEY WERE ON THEIR OTHER FRIEND'S SIDE.
AND THIS DEEP WRENCHING IN MY HEART JUST WOULDNT STOP PERSISTING.

GIVING UP WAS ALL IT TOOK TO RELEASE THAT.
I REALLY WANTED TO.
BUT MR CHUA DIDNT ALLOW ME.

I FUCKING TRY AND MAKE SACRIFACES.
AND I GET ALL THESE BACK.
I JUST DONT GET IT.
I REALLY JUST DONT GET IT.

bursting; flooding
wrenching; twisting
pain; anger

2007-03-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

First of all, i wanna say a big SORRY to Zoe and Estee for not doing my share of the English proj. ):
Really really sorry..
Dont be mad at me k! x(

Second of all,

CHEER UP SAPOK! (:
Dont feel sad anymore.
Because if you keep thinking it's your fault,
Then it's my fault too.

You gave so much, and used so much of your energy, unlike me.
Anything wrong should be mine.
Because i never really did my part.

You gotta be happy if we wanna pull through this together k? :D
Love you girl. ((:

2007-03-20T20:53:00.000+08:00

WAY BACK INTO LOVE

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Ohhhhh... ...

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

i said i wasnt gonna lose my head
but then pop! goes my heart. :D

2007-03-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

post number #260!
oooh. time flies. xD

School's reopening tmr!
OH MY GOSHHHH.... ....
This week has been like, super "eventful".
._.

Monday:
SS outing to Supreme Court at 7.40am (tio scam!).
At supreme court.
Went back sch for lunch and study.
Dance from 1 to 6.30pm.

Tuesday:
Met Minghui and Yaqi to study in sch at 9am.
Dance from 1 to 6.30pm.

Wednesday:
Met Minghui and Yaqi in sch to study at 9am.
Dance from 12 to 6.30pm.

Thursday:
Chem makeup class in sch at 7.30am.
Do hmk alone ():) till 12pm.
Met Minghui and Yaqi to go to dance.
Dance from 1 to 6.30pm.

Friday:
Woke up for breakfast with mum.
Went home.
Do hmk.
- the whole day just passed like that! gosh -

Saturday:
Woke up to go out in the morning.
Watched MUSIC AND LYRICS!
:D Nice show. (:
Went to church at City Harvest.
From 5pm to 11pm.

Sunday:
Woke up for brunch with mum and bro.
Tuition from 2pm to 4pm.
Reached home.
Did hmk.
Watched Phantom Of The Opera! (again)
Did somemore hmk.

NOW BLOGGING! :D:D:D
Hahhhaa!

Church has told me not to bear grudges in my heart.
Prayed to the Lord, asked him to help me repent.
Now my heart doesnt feel as heavy as before. (:

Yes, Hengxin, you were right..
It was both parties' fault.
But at least im not as childish to spam ppl's blogs..
They can think that it's me,
They can think that i'll stoop down to their level.
But i wont ever do that.
Not since sec one, not since i was childish.

I will only remain anonymous if i want to encourage that person without letting that person know who i am.
But i will never resort to underhanded, cowardly, and hum ji means to put ppl down.

The only BAD thing abt this holiday (if you can call it one) is... ...

MY HMK ISNT DONE YET!
URGHHHHH!!
Sure kena left right centre by teachers one. ):

But overall, it was an enjoyable week.
(: THANK YOU.

2007-03-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

Tired.
._.

Just reached home after leaving the house at 7 in the morning.
Super tired now.
-dead-

After dance today,
While helping someone to open the dance cupboard..
The table that was blocking the cupboard came flying down, smooshing my big toe.
Urghhh..
The toe is like turning purple now.
Sick..

Watched sister's performance.
Tired.
Hahahha..
But enjoyed every moment of it. :D

Goodnight! (:

2007-03-15T01:07:00.000+08:00

HO YEAH! :D
YOU GOT PWNED (:

2007-03-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

YES!
I HAVE BOUGHT MY BIBLE.
:DDDDD

And my feet are swellllling.
Gahhhh.
I GOT PWNED BY MY MUM!!!
NOOOOOO

2007-03-12T20:55:00.000+08:00

Dance today was TIRING!
Oh gosh.
My feet are swollen after 5 and a half hours of dance.
Pain. ):
Hahahaha..

It's gonna be like that for the next 3 days.
Urgh.
Especially facing a bunch of AP KIAS
who have NO LIFE WHATSOEVER
going around SPAMMING PPL'S BLOGS WITH VULGARITIES
and TALKING LOUDLY DURING DANCE DISTURBING EVERYONE ELSE
and BEING CHILDISH,
CALLING PPL NAMES
and COMING UP WITH STUPID STORIES LIKE BLOWING UP SOMEONE'S BLUE VAN.

I mean, HOW CHILDISH CAN THEY GET?

APing seniors was a taboo when i was sec one.
I was freakin scared of my seniors until i didnt even dare to talk back to them.
I didnt even dare to joke with them.

Now, they even dare to SCOLD their seniors.
Like (excuse the vulgarities but that's what they said) kanina.. Bitch etc.

Isnt the batch now terribly sad and PATHETIC?

I mean, you all have a really bad attitude.
And you blame us for being biased against you all.
PATHETIC SPOILT BRATS.

That's why we torture you. :D
And it gives me great pleasure to pump you
EVERY SINGLE DANCE PRACTICE FROM NOW TILL I STEP DOWN.
I'll be stepping down anyway.
So, who cares whether i get complains by parents? *rolls eyes*

You can call me a biatch or whatever..
But I DONT CARE! WOOTS!

If im frustrated or what..
A-pumping you all will get. (:

Unless you all d-bla or whatever you call yourselves change your attitudes, dont expect me not to be biased against you. :DD
AND!
If you cont AP-ing me..
THE MORE I'LL TORTURE YOU.
Direct variation.
Simple. (:

2007-03-11T17:34:00.000+08:00

OH YAYYYYY!!!!!!!
I AM GOING FOR HIGH TEA AT RITZ CARLTON/FULLERTON NEXT/NEXT NEXT WEEK!!
WOOOOOOOOTS~

Hahhaa.
Super highness. (:

And if I need a rhythm
Gonna be to my heart I listen
Ramalama Bang Bang
Flash Bang Big Bang
Bing Bong Ding Dong Dum Dum Do Dum

2007-03-11T01:09:00.000+08:00

4C ROCKS!
WE OWN!!!!

Most of our CA results were like..
Cut by half?

All those ppl who thought that 3C/4C was hopeless..
HAH! BITE MY DUST! (:

2007-03-09T21:58:00.000+08:00

MOODY AGAIN! ):

Hate feeling down.

And oh gosh do i hate my juniors. (Dont ask.)
I am so close to just.. URGH.

Sigh. Dont know whether should still go UK. ):

2007-03-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

Mood now: ):

Watched Cheung Cheng Main vs Ngee Ann bball finals just now.
CCHMS won! :D
After so long in AHS, this is the first time i've stayed to watch an entire bball match.
*pats own back*
Another thing done before i leave AHS.

OOH! UK TRIP!
EVERYONE can go now! :DD
Yayyyyy!!!!!
But the price is like..
$2898. O.O
~~$$$$$$$$$~~

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------

Alot of ppl have a super wrong impression now.
We are just friends.
Seriously. There's nothing going on between us.
Words hurt, harm, and destroy.

i wont forget all the ones that i love
though it's not easy to tell you goodbye

2007-03-07T17:59:00.000+08:00

Hahha seriously guys, im not so despo over him! x))
Im just FAHUACHIING over him. :D

Founder's Day. *rolls eyes*
Nothing much to say.
Well, let's just say that i've changed my bday to today too.. sooo...

HAPPY BDAY TO ME! and all those who changed their bdays to today too. X)
Im 16! WOOTS! Hhahhaha lol (obviously this is just to suan something.. (:)

It was quite waste time though,
BUT! They estimated us to end at around 4.30pm..
We ended at 3.30pm! :DD
Hahahhaha! Happyness.

But of course, in a happy day, there are of course,
Depressing moments. ):
Our trip to UK may not be able to commence.
The criteria to go is that you must be able to:
- pass your 2006 EOYs
- pass every subj of your 2007 CA1
- have a good discipline record
- have no impt CCA sessions during the duration of the trip

And i passed every criteria! *pats own head*
Which means im a goodie-two-shoes ._.
BLEAH.
The thing is....

My friends who are accompanying me on this trip are not exactly "GOODIE-TWO-SHOES".
): So im afraid of going there alone..
Or worse! with the sec threes *rolls eyes*
Hopefully Ms Cheong *blink blink* will loosen the criteria so that all of them can go..
AND WE ALL CAN HAVE FUN! :D

Super moodswing today.
Happy to Tired to Emo to Inspired to Tired to Happy to Emo.

Byebye ppl... ...

With shadows I spend it all
My heart and I have decided to end it all

2007-03-06T16:57:00.000+08:00

ZOE DIDNT COME SCH TODAY! )):
Take care and get well soon girl. :DD

Kept coughing like crazy today.
Couldnt even talk properly without coughing every 30 sec.
Didnt even form a coherant paragraph. ):

And..
THANKS TO ESTEE FOR LISTENING TO WHAT'S BEEN BUGGING ME FOR A LONG LONG TIME. (:
It didnt seem like it was a huge problem when i told you,
But it's been pulling at my heart for a long time now.

Feeling EMO now leh!
Hhahaha.. Must be the meds. (:
GOODNIGHT! and GOODBYE!

2007-03-04T17:14:00.001+08:00

Posting lesser than usual..
Which is a GOOD THING. :D

4C outing yesterday! Went to Mr Ong's house. ((:
In the morning i went out and watched The Pursuit Of Happyness, which is such a FREAKIN' NICE SHOW. :DD
It's basically abt this dude who got poor cos he was dumb and invested in a stupid thing, and he got rich cos he finally became SMART by becoming a stockbroker!! :DD
-the end-
Hahhaha lol.

I estimated the show to end around 3.30pm, so i could rush down to Tanah Merah and pick the ppl who were meeting me up,
But, the show ended at 4pm. ._.
So i called Tabby and she agreed to bring them there first.
THANKS TABBY!

I met Bryan Yeo at the MRT there cos he was late too.
Then, we got lost on the way to Mr Ong's house.
LOL. Walked for around... ... 15? 20 min?
Haahha.

When we finally got there, i changed and jumped into the pool.

Then, BBQ! :DD
I ate very little cos my throat pain. )):
Just sat around.
Afterwards, we were listening to Jay Chou songs in the rain..
And then i thought of Chiang Rai.
Felt super sad. ))):

We lo-heied.. THEN SWIM AGAIN!
LOL.
I heard the story abt a maid who drowned in the pool and got kinda freaked out.
Didnt dare to swim to the other end of the pool which was 2.5m. xDD

Alot of ppl kena ponded.. EXCEPT ME!
I got pulled in cos i was trying to be a nice person.
(It doesnt pay to be nice)

Slacked.. Talked around..
And then, went home!
Such a fun day, the funnest in a long long time. :D
THANK YOU 4C! I LOVE YOU GUYS! :D

I'll post more pictures up next time!
Time to study!
Byebye! :DD

2007-02-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

O.O
There's a pregnant 9-year-old girl in Singapore.
OMGOOSSSHHH......
This is getting freaky.
SHE HAD SEX IN PRIMARY THREE ZOMMMMGGGG
What the hell!
Singapore is getting weirder and weirder.
So morally wrong. ):

I GOT 3 ULCERS IN ONE GROUP IN MY MOUTH!
AND A SEPARATE 4TH ONE. ))):
SUCKY SUCKY.

2007-02-25T21:14:00.000+08:00

Recently i stumbled upon this site http://www.aninote.com yes i know im lag FT sucker!
The most famous one is themightyone.
Click here to view: http://nalina.youaremighty.com :DD

But, my personal favourite is this:
http://nalina.justgotowned.com
((:

And! This is my 2nd fave! :DD
http://nalina.doyouhaveepilepsy.com
Super fun. to kachiao your friends. (:

ENJOY!

Going to NUS UCC on Tuesday. ._.
HAVE TO REACH SCH AT 6am OMFreakinGosh.
Gonna be at UCC until around 10am before heading back to sch.
Which will take us one hour..

Which means that we'll be back in sch at 11+am!
WOOTS! :DD

But, i'll be missing CHEMLAB and CHINESE TEST.
Which also means that i'll have to stay back on other days to finish them. ._.
Woohoo. Dammit.

SS test tmr.
STUDY ! STUDY ! STUDY !

2007-02-25T01:09:00.000+08:00

When you love a woman,
You tell her that she's the one ~

Gosh.
Im never gonna touch alcohol till i get over this. x(

I went to my auntie's house and drank some Corona and Bacardi.
I drank until one third of the bottle was left.
After that, we had to Lo Hei already, so i downed the remainder.

Guess what happened.

While having steamboat, i suddenly felt woozy. ._.
Went to the toilet, and sat down there.
I freakin' couldnt breathe lah. LOL.
Felt damn hot, then after that, felt damn cold.
Then okay liao.

My sis said it was cos i drank too little that's why havent reach the "high" stage yet.
Why i felt like that was cos i was just a little away from getting high.
._. Should have drank more.
Hhahha! xDD

Anyway, this was a super bad experience.
Im gonna ward off alcohol till next month! :DD
ABSTAIN.. ABSTAIN..

2007-02-24T14:09:00.000+08:00

For those who saw the tags on my tagboard last night..
It was just someone who got high on Barcardi. x))
Hahhaa.. Just ignore whatever he said. :DD

Hady Mirza - You Give Me Wings

Sometimes it’s hard just to be yourself
I know you know
So close to tears wanting to give up
I felt all alone
But now you’re here right by my side
And I just want you to know

You give me wings when I’m falling
You lift me up when I’m down
Taking me high touching the sky
Yeah you make me fly...

Now I am stronger than I was before
Because of you
I feel so alive and I’m wanting more
I can’t believe it's true
And now you're here, right by my side
Don’t ever let me go

You give me wings when I’m falling
You lift me up when I’m down
Taking me high, touching the sky
Yeah you make me fly...

Ooo baby, woah woah
Come fly away with me
You give me wings when I’m falling
That’s why I’m saying to you... ...

You give me wings when I’m falling (when I'm falling)
You lift me up when I’m down (when I'm down)
Taking me high (taking me high)
Touching the sky (touching the sky)
Yeah you make me (you make me)
Fly... ...

You give me wings when I'm falling
You lift me up when I'm down
Taking me high
Touching the sky
Yeah you make me
You make me fly

Oh.
What you see, may not be true.
Stop coming up with your own conclusions to bring me down.

I've gotta come up with my ownTO-KILL LIST like Weisheng.
And of course, most of you know who is first on my list. (:
Maybe it'll make me feel better.

2007-02-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

Watched DREAMGIRLS! today. (:

Jennifer Hudson totally rocks. :DD
She owns Beyonce.
Hhahaha!

Watching American Idol now.
I think Lakisha Jones' gonna win.
Definitely. :D

2007-02-21T22:09:00.000+08:00

explain again to me~

CNY celebration today.
It was... ... well-planned. (X

Anyway, i forgot to blog abt Chiang Rai outing!
*smacks head*

First we went to Mr Yeow's house to bai nian! :D
We went there and watched the Chiang Rai video which was ONE HOUR LONG.
We skipped alot of parts. Hhaha.

At his house, we watched alot of Old School Bball.
LOLLL. Their sexy underwear. Glenn notices their sexy underwear.
And i said something wrong. GOSH.

someone: omgosh look at their thighs!
me: i only notice the ball (REFERRING TO BASKETBALL), not the thighs.
*everyone stun O.O*
me: ... ?? (realization sinks in) NOOO!!!!!!!!!!! AHHH I WAS REFERRING TO THE BASKETBALL!!!!!!!

._. sick ppl.

Afterwards, Mr and Mrs Yeow cooked Roti Prata and Chicken Curry for us!
NICENICE! :D:D

We left Mr Yeow's house at 12.45 and chionged to catch Ghost Rider/Epic Movie.
We didnt actually decide on the movie until we reached there.
But oh well. In the end we all watched Epic Movie cos i've already watched Ghost Rider.
LOL. IT WAS SO FREAKIN' GAY!!!!!!
The White Bitch. HAHHHAHA
Later we went off to ECP.
Missed the bus stop.
At first i was correct one lorh!
Then Minghui pressed the bell like 3 times..
The guys keep saying it's wrong when it was right. ._.
We took the bus ALL THE WAY to Parkway Parade.
Oh gosh.

We went to ECP, and there were ALOT of ppl there.
Rented bikes, and cycled for two hours.
Was really tired cos was wearing jeans. xP

At this waterbreaker Glenn tripped over a rock and a quarter of his toenail came off.
It was sick. But not as sick as what i've seen before. xDD
Hahahhaa. Get well soon ISAAC!!

After that went back to Parkway.
I bought bubble tea, and went home cos i was really tired.
Hahahaha.. I slept at 8.30pm leh!
LOL. Woke up and slept early again.

These few days been sleeping really late cos of Mahjong. *rolls eyes*
Tired tired.

Was gay in school during CNY celebration.
Goh Han, ISAAC, Bangalah, Char..
ALL SPAS. x)

Orange-giving was gay.
Teacher *cough* was being gay.
EVERYONE WAS GAY!! :D

After CNY celebration (school ended at 11.30am),
Char and I went to Bedok Interchange.
Tried to catch Dreamgirls.
Dont have.

Went to Century Square.
Dont have.
Went to TM.
Dont have.

Went to Cathay.
Dont have.
Went to Plaza Sing.
Dont have.

!(*&$%&^(*&^##$)%

FIVE CINEMAS ONE ALSO DONT HAVE!
Kenasaiiiiiiii... ... ... ...

Then in the end come my house play mahjong.
LOL!
So fun.
I kena pwned. xDD

Hhahaha.
Gtg study chem liao!
CIAOS! :D:D

2007-02-20T23:47:00.000+08:00

Im feeling so #(!*%^+&#@ now.

All i wanna do is down a few cans or bottles down.
Been doing that for the past few days anyway.

I dunno what's wrong with me.
But i guess, the problem doesnt lie with me.

2007-02-19T22:24:00.000+08:00

ANGBAOS ANGBAOS! :DD

I realised this year that i have 2 SUPER RICH relatives.

If u think my house is big,
Both their houses are 4 times bigger than mine.

O.O
Im amazed.
They were just humongous.

ANYWAY!
CHIANG RAI OUTING TMR!!!! (((:

Me: Tues i not free.
Dad: Why?
Me: Oh. Cos i meeting the Chiang Rai ppl go out.
Dad: WAH! They coming over from Chiang Rai?!?!
Me: ... ...

2007-02-17T17:59:00.000+08:00

Aiyah. I dont like going to temples. *rolls eyes*

Changed to this bimbotic template.
Hahhaha! xD
Okayy.. Off to reunion dinner!

CIAOS PPL! :D

2007-02-16T22:36:00.000+08:00

If u wanna tell me, just do so.

First of all - BRYAN YEO. I DO NOT AGREE WITH YOUR THEORY
Second - Im feeling really tired and troubled.
Third - BRING ON THE ANGBAOS! (:

I wanna just lie on my bed and fall aslp.
But there's just too little time uh. ):
Have to study and do hmk during CNY.
WTH. It so sucks.
After CNY have so many tests.

I miss the days when i was so carefree and could just lie at home and watch TV.
Right now, i just pray for energy, support and encouragement from those around me and for those around me.

IT'S TIRING BEING A SEC 4.

IT'S WORSE WITH PPL JUDGING YOU.

I JUST WANNA STRANGLE ALL THOSE WHO PISS ME OFF.

Esp those few irritating ppl who i cant wait to escape from.
Urgh!!!!!!!!!!!! X.X

And, right now my family aint helping either.
I dont know whether im supposed to be burdened by all these problems.
My brother and sister dont know abt alot of things because they're always not home.
Because of that, my mum tells me all the problems we're facing.
And because she's frustrated, she vents it all on me and i cant take it.
Maybe i should just NOT GO HOME.

I know that the amount of panadol i take on a daily basis isnt healthy.
But it's the only way of destressing and i feel so much better after taking 2 pills.
Hopefully my mum wont confiscate them.
Otherwise i think im just gonna die.

Oh gosh my thoughts are so disorientated now.
My mind's in a mess. So dont mind my ranting.

2007-02-15T20:44:00.001+08:00

They're coming back to haunt me.

EVERY.

SINGLE.

THING.

A video of my brother and his gf dancing during the Salsa Congress.
Hahaha. (: SALSA ON!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BZlxu9o3olY

2007-02-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY V'DAY EVERYONE! ((:

Hahhaa. Celebrated V'DAY in school with classmates!
Then after that i celebrated with the dance ppl! (:
After that! I went to watch GHOST RIDER!
OMGOSH IT'S LIKE A COOL SHOW! :D:D:D:D:D

Nicolas Cage like just rocks lah.
Hahhaa. And Eva Mendes has a big rack. xDDD
The FIRE was hot too! (:

The movie was supposed to open on the 15th!
But tyco tyco, OPEN AT PRINCESS TODAY! :D

Hahhaha.. Just reached home.
Quite tired. But happy. (:

Gotta study for E Math now!
WAHHOOO! :D

2007-02-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

Today was exciting! (for me) LOL.

First of all, my test tube exploded during CHEM LAB.
Hahahha! xDD
I was heating black solid M over a strong flame, with a delivery tube channelled to limewater.
Then i turned the flame to a blue-flame, and then suddenly BOOM!
My test tube exploded!
The black solid dropped into the flame and it turned GREEN.
Therefore, i deduce that the black solid has something to do with copper. x))

When the test tube exploded, obviously i was in momentary shock.
But SOMEONE (cough) was just looking at the flame, not bothering to help in any way.
She didnt even bother to switch the flame off.
Later she asked me, "Did you see the flame?"
*rolls eyes*
I was more occupied with whether anyone got hurt, I didnt notice the green flame at all.
She was so pre-occupied with just staring at the flame.
Gahh.
But luckily noone got hurt. (:

Anyway! Gotta work on argumentative essay and compre!
ENGLISH ENGLISH! ((:

HAPPY V'DAY EVERYONE! :D

2007-02-12T13:28:00.001+08:00

IM GONNA BE STRONG!
and im glad i have you, mum. (:

The River - Good Charlotte (Feat. Avenged Sevenfold)

As I walk through the valley
Of the shadow of LA
The footsteps that were next to me
Have gone their separate ways
I've seen enough now
To know that beautiful things
Don't always stay that way
I've done enough now
To know this beautiful place
Isn't everything they say

I heard that evil comes disguised
Like a city of angels
I'm walking towards the light

Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered
I'm delivered

(Avenged Sevenfold)
You're from a small town
You're gonna grow up fast
Underneath these lights
Down in Hollywood on the boulevard
The dead come back to life
To the praying Mother
The worried Father
Let your children go
If they come back they'll come home stronger
And if they don't you'll know

They sing that evil comes disguised
Like a city of angels
I'm walking towards the light

Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered
I'm delivered

Baptized in the river (on my own)
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
On my own
On my own
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered

I confess I'm a sinner
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered

This song is like so rockin'.
:)

2007-02-09T20:47:00.000+08:00

Go The Distance - Michael Bolton

I have often dreamed of a far-off place,
Where a hero's welcome would be waiting for me.
Where the crowds would cheer, when they see my face,
And a voice keeps saying this is where I'm meant to be.

I'll be there someday, I can go the distance.
I will find my way if I can be strong.
I know every mile would be worth my while,
When I go the distance, I'll be right where I belong.

Down an unknown road to embrace my fate,
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you.
And a thousand years would be worth the wait.
It might take a lifetime but somehow I'll see it through.

And I won't look back, I can go the distance,
And I'll stay on track, no I won't accept defeat,
It's an uphill slope, but I won't lose hope,
'Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete.

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part,
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart...

Like a shooting star, I will go the distance,
I will search the world, I will face its harms,
I don't care how far, I can go the distance,
'Till I find my hero's welcome waiting in your arms.
I will search the world, I will face its harms
'Till I find my hero's welcome waiting in your arms.

(:

I've thought it over.
Im not gonna drop Higher Chinese!
NOPE NOPE! *shakes head*

2007-02-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

So many tests in a week.
And yet i can still blog pretty much every single day.
Amazing isnt it?

Stayed back in sch to meet You Jin.
She's a really interesting woman, and she told us alot of her experiences with students and her stories not in the book..
And she also taught us how to write compos. xD

Im going to Victoria School for their council investiture on Friday.
Blahh. Have to leave CCA early.
Sian.
But anyways, im going with JU-WEL!
Something happened and now Reuben replaced me thanks dude! (:.
Stupid XXX. RARRRR.

Monday - ~~Chemistry: Rate of Reaction I~~
Tuesday - ~~Chemistry: Rate of Reaction II; Chinese: Cheng yus and stuff~~
Wednesday - ~~E Lit: Macbeth open bk test~~
Thursday - ~~S.S: Chapter 5~~
Friday - ~~A Math: Binomial Expansion and Indices~~

There are like tests already planned after CNY lorh.
Before CNY also have tests. ._.
Got Pub deco also! And class board deco!
SYF! Council!

Everyone say my PIMPLES all coming out!
AAAHHHH!!! NOOOO!!
I DONT WANT PIMPLES. )):
i sound so taitai.

Off to study!
CIAOS! ((:

2007-02-05T20:35:00.000+08:00

School simply sucked today.
PE SUCKED THE MOST.

Im also falling sick lorh.
What is this.
Freakin' sucky.

2007-02-04T22:41:00.000+08:00

My greatgrandma passed away today at the age of 94.
I just saw her yesterday. She couldnt even recognise my grandma, her daughter.

Well, at least she went away in peace. ):

2007-02-03T15:02:00.000+08:00

After this incident, i've developed a hate for spammers.

59.189.61.203

This person spammed my friend's blog.
(: Pls help and find out who this immature brat is.
Thank you. :D

http://www.campaignforrealbeauty.com/flat4.asp?id=6909

Oh!
My sis and Yinghuan (dance senior, ex-councillor) are gonna be on tv on Sunday dancing for the Jue Dui Superstar finals! (:
Rmb to watch!

I didnt go for class noticeboard deco today.
Woke up not feeling well AT ALL.
Was like sneezing and coughing the entire morning. ):
Sorry guys. Should have tong1 zhi1 you all. X(

Anyway, Willie's looking for ppl to join the XIIAO FAMILY!
Who want to join? ((:
I AM XIIAONUIINAII!
LOL.. So many Is.

And i was just wondering,
Why is it that all the nicknames i've gotten for the past 2 years are all so.. EWW?
E.G dualiap (dua dua, liap liap), moo, cow, da nai, nailina (nehlina, lanineh) and now xiiaonuiinaii.
I have alot more but i just cant rmb now. x)
Gosh.
YOU PERVERTIC PPL!
*slaps your face*

2007-02-03T01:16:00.000+08:00

"Anons" have admitted and apologised to me for their behavior.
I've decided not to pursue the matter.

I admire these "anons" for coming out and admitting to their faults.
And i've chided them not to do such immature things again.

Thank you to all my friends who supported me through this entire ordeal.
I mean, maybe to u, it was nothing more but a trivial matter which i blew out of proportion.
But, there were many many hidden problems underneath, and it's only during times like these do u see a person's true nature.

So, thank you to all my friends for backing me up.
Anons' tags will all be deleted.
Pls do not scold them anymore, at least they had the courage to stand up and apologise.

But this is the bit of info abt the 10 "anons" that spammed my blog.

4/10 are councillors.
3/10 are dance juniors.
The remaining 4 dont know me, and i dont know them.

So clearly it was an act of immaturity, and hopefully they've learnt their lesson.
But i want u guys to know that this wasnt the only reason why i wanted to step down from council.
It was more of an accumulation of problems.
For now the other problems arent settled yet, but this incident has boosted my moral and it has told me that there are ignorant fools out there who can turn around in the nick of time to become more mature and knowledgable.

So thanks once again to everyone.
Hopefully life goes on as per normal, or even better. (:
God bless.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

In class today i married BRYAN YEO!
OMGOSH!
And we have a daughter! - LOO HUILING!

Let me explain the theory.
Bryan Yeo - Black = Chocolate
Nalina - *cough* = Milk
Huiling - HL chocolate milk! xD

Huiling is married to Hengxin who is Sock Ling and Tabby's son.
So Bryan Yeo and i are in-laws with them.
Then we share a dog.
Socks and Tab call her Feefee.
Bryan Yeo and i call her Beebee.
Feefeebeebee feebee feebee PHOEBE! is our dog. xDD

Hengxin never dao4 cha2 for us to seek permission to marry our daughter.
HENGXIN! CANNOT MARRY MY DAUGHTER!!!!

this last section was just some mad ranting from the author.
dont blame her. she is physically active but mentally exhausted.

2007-02-01T20:40:00.000+08:00

I've numbed myself already.
Almost totally.
Dont feel it anymore.

IT refers to alot of things.
Not just the anger. Not just the pain. Passion as well.

Anyway, just another happy event for me to get happy abt.
My dad got another laptop.
So now, there's like 3 lappies (bro, sis, dad) at home and 2 desktops (me, mum).
Siao boh. I think it's just crazy.
Although, im using my dad's lappie to type now. (it's very nice! :D)

Felt really happy today.
Maybe it's cause for once, i can concentrate and listen in class without being distracted.
I also could listen properly and my mind wasnt drifting away - to council, to dance.
I realized, if i kept thinking abt that matter, i would never be able to study in class anymore.
Cos i would be too involved in thinking of those freaks.
So, i've decided to settle these ppl after and in-between classes, at least i could concentrate in class more.

Right now, i've got mixed feelings.
I have 2 options: FORGIVE&FORGET - spare the rod and spoil the child, or, DONTFORGIVE&DONTFORGET - making me seem like a heartless monster.
I dont know right now.

My reason for wanting to step down from council was not only because of those anons, but because of other matters as well.
I spoke to Mr Chua already, and he didnt allow me to get the form to quit.
I think most ppl would actually think it's cos im too busy that's why i wanna quit, that is on my list of why i wanna quit, but, it's right at the bottom.
Im not as busy as i used to be.

Also, i want to apologise to those ppl who got scared by me.
I wanted to control my feelings, but i just couldnt, so i showed my weakest side so many times in just one day.
I know i frightened some ppl with my option to step down from council, and i apologise for that.
But, my decision remains. And hopefully most of you all can support me in my decision.

Dont worry, im not quitting (yet). It actually depends on the situation and how it develops.
Not many ppl actually know the reason for why i wanna step down, the only ppl who know are Mr Chua, and a friend who is not feeling very well now (not naming person so ppl wont bother him/her).
But i realized that this was a very complicated matter, and i knew that this would not be easy to solve. Esp when ppl who know dont wanna tell.

Right now, i have a rough idea of who the perpetrators are.
IM GIVING YOU GUYS A FINAL WARNING: IF YOU ADMIT AND APOLOGISE TO ME (WHEN IM IN A GOOD MOOD) NOW, YOU WILL NOT BE PUNISHED AS HARSHLY. I GIVE YOU ALL UNTIL NEXT WEEK (9/2/07 - FRIDAY) TO COME AND TELL ME. IF THE ENTIRE GRP COMES AND APOLOGISES TO ME, I WILL DROP THE MATTER. BUT, IF YOU DONT WANT TO ADMIT WHAT YOU DID WRONG, YOU GUYS KNOW THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR OWN ACTIONS.

Hint hint: dun admit no matter what.
(:

Am i making a huge fuss of this?
YES I AM. So what you gonna do?
This does not involve only the juniors, this involves the seniors as well.

Thank you guys for standing up for me, and encouraging me right now.
But, there are complicated matters, which im afraid when i tell you, you all will "bu shuang".
I dont wanna sacriface friendship, just like what you all dont wanna do.
That's why i wanted to step down.

Lastly: I need to slp.
Goodnight.

So many bright lights that cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding? I’m incomplete.
A life that’s so demanding, I get so weak.
A love that's so demanding, I can’t speak.
I am not afraid to keep on living,
I am not afraid to walk this world alone

And I just hope you know,
That if you say Goodbye today, I'd ask you to be true,
Cause the hardest part of this, is leaving you...

2007-01-31T19:11:00.000+08:00

I seriously dont wanna stay in council anymore.
It was my mistake to think that anon was ONE PERSON.
It's in fact a whole group of ppl.
And to not complicate things further, there's only one option.

TO ANON(S): YOUR PURPOSE WAS TO DRIVE ME AWAY. TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG. TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IM USELESS IN COUNCIL. WELL, YOU'VE DONE IT. HAPPY NOW?

2007-01-30T20:24:00.000+08:00

The 2nd passerby, ~ and me are the same person again. xDD
LOL. Same as anon1 - anon100000. (:

166.121.36.10
Guys, thanks for sticking up for me. :DD

Haii.. These two weeks there's gonna be ALOT of tests.
Dont know why i bother myself with this at all. *rolls eyes*

And yes freddie i agree with you.
Ppl with no balls. Tsktsk.
Thanks alot. (:
even though i everytime shout at you. :D

Tabby and Willie. (:
Thanks for helping out.

TO ANON!
Thanks for making my day. :D
It's hilarious to see such tags every single day.
And at the same time, this incident can only reinforce my friends' care for me.
Although, it is disappointing to someone resort to this sort of underhanded and childish means. LOL.

Alright everyone!
Shall go study Bio, Math, Chinese, whatever blah blah tests that are coming up!
WRITE DEBATE SPEECH! ARGH

2007-01-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

TO ANON 1 - 1000000 (anything lah) IN MY TAGBOARD:

LOL!!!!!!

YOU'RE JUST ONE PERSON!
*points and laughs*

I seriously have no idea which boliao person will go and spam my tagboard pretending to be alot of ppl.
._.
Childish, ignorant, gay, ah-lian, whatever blah blah. xD
But seriously lah, you guys wanna see what he/she wrote?
It's really amusing!

*note: all vulgarities are taken straight from the tagger. i apologize for any traumatizing effects it has on any one reader. (:
**notenote: the IP add and the times of the tags. HAHHAHAHHAA

anon2 166.121.36.10
so u want us to shoot u?!BANG BANG..29 January 2007, 03:33 [GMT]
try finding a gun first. (:

anon1 166.121.36.10
BANG! are you dead? i hope you are fats. i wont be so mean, but why dont you just do us all a favour and shoot yourself. yay!29 January 2007, 03:34 [GMT]
i would if i could, i just cant find a gun. ((:

anon3 166.121.36.10
bangbangbangbangbangbangbangbang =X29 January 2007, 03:35 [GMT]
okay. this reminds me of some kid holding the toy gun then playing cops and robbers. x)

anon2 166.121.36.10
lols.ANONS UNITE!!!29 January 2007, 03:36 [GMT]
okay, this gets freaky. cos a person actually imagines himself/herself to have alot more ppl around her! OH WOW.

anon 4 166.121.36.10
whatever crap.u dun nid 2 act tough or whatever.if u wanna b shoot,u will b dead by now.we're juz being kind here=
29 January 2007, 03:36 [GMT]
number one, i dont act tough. number two, try shooting me if you want to. i wanna see how a bullet feels in my leg. (:

anon 4 166.121.36.10
whatever crap.u dun nid 2 act tough or whatever.if u wanna b shoot,u will b dead by now.we're juz being kind here=
29 January 2007, 03:36 [GMT]
refer to previous response. :D

anon2 166.121.36.10
yeah.agreed.nalina sux.29 January 2007, 03:36 [GMT]
agree with...?

anon1 166.121.36.10
i feel like biting off your head.29 January 2007, 03:37 [GMT]
bite lah. lol.

anon6 166.121.36.10
you sucker. go suck dicks
29 January 2007, 03:37 [GMT]
i havent reached the age limit where oral sex is allowed but you are allowed to go and oral any goose you can find.

anon7 166.121.36.10
YOYO!u suck man.bet u dun noe dat la SUCKER!29 January 2007, 03:37 [GMT]
anon7 says yo to anon 6 who has the exact same ip add. ._.

anon8 166.121.36.10
like. shut up la. hope you are dead by now. ^^29 January 2007, 03:37 [GMT]
lalalalala im not dead! come shoot me lah. ^^

anon3 166.121.36.10
anons unite. lol. bangbangbangbangbangbangbangbangbangbangbangbangbang. =X29 January 2007, 03:37 [GMT]
LOL x100000000

anon6 166.121.36.10
you sucker. go suck dicks29 January 2007, 03:37 [GMT]
as i've said, i cant find anyone. ): sad right?

anon6 166.121.36.10
you want me to shoot you? so i did. GO AND DIE MAN YOU PROSTITUTE
29 January 2007, 03:38 [GMT]
at least im a prostitute and not some old virgin like someone tagging. (:

anon9 166.121.36.10
hey two faced banana(:29 January 2007, 03:38 [GMT
WTH IS THAT.

anon6 166.121.36.10
carry your big boobs and JUMP OFF THE BUILDING
29 January 2007, 03:38 [GMT]
thanks for complimenting on my boobs. (: even though you're not the first one. i jump from your house lah. :D

anon 4 166.121.36.10
may b u shld juz freaking kill urself.u shld b feeling bttr that way.being shoot isn't a good feeling u noe.oh yea u shld noe judging by de no.of shoots u've receive
29 January 2007, 03:38 [GMT]
not exactly. i wanna get shot. but, cannot buy gun in singapore. gosh what an idiot.

anon000 166.121.36.10
YEAH lotsa personal probs? u think we care? i don't wanna shoot you! it will spoil my gun! anyway i think the bullet will explode when it sees your face (
29 January 2007, 03:39 [GMT]
eh that's friggin cool! imagine when the bullet come close to your face, then suddenly, BOOM! wah piang. :D

anon6 166.121.36.10
oh so you think you're SO CUTE. man, giveme a break. you're juz a fucker with big boobs
29 January 2007, 03:39 [GMT]
I AM CUTE. :DD lemme correct you, i am a f**kee, not a f**ker. (: and i have big boobs. sue me.

anon6 166.121.36.10
you are an idiot. i think you're not even FIT to be human.
29 January 2007, 03:40 [GMT]
okay. then i can be SUPERIDIOT. :D

anon1 166.121.36.10
hey fats; are your boobs fake? they sure seem like. where did you had them done?
29 January 2007, 03:40 [GMT]
you wanna know? just stuff tissue paper in lah.

anon 6 166.121.36.10
let's shoot the banana! *bangs*29 January 2007, 03:40 [GMT]
lol no life. shoot banana. that just sounds.. weird.

anon6 166.121.36.10
you're juz a bitch who enjoys torturing people. fuck off
29 January 2007, 03:40 [GMT]
that's right. totally. who's off? (:

anon7 166.121.36.10
whoots fucker u totally suck la.go and eat ur beloved shit!29 January 2007, 03:41 [GMT]
you want me to eat phoebe? xDDD

anon7 166.121.36.10
whoots fucker u totally suck la.go and eat ur beloved shit!29 January 2007, 03:41 [GMT]
LOL

anon 5 166.121.36.10
is she dead yet?? (:29 January 2007, 03:41 [GMT]
hahhaa what a weird question. yes and im here to haunt you?

anon9 166.121.36.10
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee29 January 2007, 03:41 [GMT]
._.

anon000 166.121.36.10
YEAH lotsa personal probs? u think we care? i don't wanna shoot you! it will spoil my gun! anyway i think the bullet will explode when it sees your face (
29 January 2007, 03:42 [GMT]
lol no innovation. no improvement. tsk tsk.

anon 4 166.121.36.10
if u wanna commit suicide dun jump off de building.i scared whn u jump ur big fat boobs will hit ur face n explod
29 January 2007, 03:42 [GMT]
at least i have big boobs. (: and btw, jumping off a building isnt the only way to commit suicide. :D

anon7 166.121.36.10
nah i dun wan to shoot u in ur FACE.coz the sight of it makes me PUKE.29 January 2007, 03:42 [GMT]
oh alright. shoot me in my big humongous breasts then.

anon6 166.121.36.10
ok ok ok im sorry, but oh wells, i just cant stand you. do change unless you want your friends to leave you one by one
29 January 2007, 03:44 [GMT
leave lah. seriously. i dont really care. cos right now i know where my priorities stand, unlike some immature biatch who spams ppl's blogs. (:

anon000 166.121.36.10
so there. you're so fat you don't need internet cause you're WORLD WIDE! x)29 January 2007, 03:45 [GMT]
HEY THAT'S COOL LEH! HAHHAAHHAHHA that's really funny!

... 166.121.36.10
do change your "speak your love" to "speak your hate"
29 January 2007, 03:49 [GMT]
speak lorh. xD

It's amazing how many tags a person can leave at ONE tagboard at a time space of 16 min.
I mean, how does he/she do it? OH GOSH.
The person MUST have alot of hate for me. (:

OH MY SS URL IS: www.doyoursocialstudies.blogspot.com
(: GIVE ME HIGH MARKS!

2007-01-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

Im so tired of ppl judging me for who they think i am.
If they think i dont deserve whatever i have now,
I say: TOO BAD. LIVE WITH IT.

I too am unsatisfied with lotsa stuff.
What else can i do?
Shut my trap and just live life the best i can.

And FYI, i have alot of things troubling me now too.
If you have "personal problems", it seems as though ONLY YOU have personal problems and noone else does.
Alot of things require self-sacrifice, and that is the thing that Singaporean youth dont have anymore.

Shoot me for all you like.
Shoot me IN MY FACE.
Dont go behind my back and make it awkward for my friends to break it to me.
Esp Tabby and Bryan Toh.
None of them wanted to tell me, for fear that i will feel "sad".
The only kind of "sadness" i feel is for those who are ignorant, and dont think abt the entire picture.

I admit, i am sad after hearing this. But i knew that this issue would come up sooner or later.
I knew it would be hard to be accepted. I knew it when i entered.
I tried. I tried my best. All that i could.
If i couldnt be accepted as part of your family, that only proves something.
That this isnt as perfect as it looks.
It's nothing but a facade, a fake, a mask put on to show the school that you all are perfect.
Acceptance is not easy, esp after so many years of bonding and suddenly this nobody breaks in and starts criticising on things that she doesnt know alot abt.
I didnt expect to be accepted straight from the beginning, neither did i expect to establish bonds with all of you.
All i wanted to do was see from an "outsider's" opinion. IS THAT WRONG?
If you think that is not the right way of seeing things, i say it is the PERFECT way of looking at you.
If you treat me like an "outsider", then all the more golden my opinion is.

FYI, I ACTUALLY DontGiveAShit.
Why should i have bothered in the first place?
I could actually be less stressed and be less irritated.
But NOOOOO. I had to get myself involved in this.
Call me stupid. But i do things for the interest of the group, not for myself.
I dont even know why i care for everything right now.
I should just go and leave everything to die in the shitplace.

2007-01-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

Cause the hardest part of this,
Is leaving you.

):

My life's screwed up now.
I dunno how to actually "unload" the stress and tell the ppl around me what's bugging me.

I want to, but i cant.
And this is my greatest burden.

Who can understand what im going through?

2007-01-20T20:39:00.000+08:00

ISNT THIS LIKE THE COOLEST!?

Thanks Mike for helping me make that. (:

Anyway, today i said goodbye to a friend of mine.
JEANINE. ):
She's going off to Australia to study for 5 years to get her degree.
Haiiii.
See ya soon JEANINE! Nice knowing you.. Even though it was for a really really short while.
Gonna have to get used to not bullying you in ballet class. x((

Kinda in a good mood today.
I resisted the pain in my pointe shoes while playing audition and owning ppl in 7 rounds. xDD
Hhahah!

Here's another thing that Mike made for me.
Yeah you know Mike.
He loves to lie. :D

2007-01-19T22:30:00.000+08:00

Woke up with a bloody headache.
Decided not to go to sch today.
Oh gosh. It's boring staying at home.

Listening to "Gloomy Sunday" now.
Hopefully i wont go jump to my death. (:

I think i missed alot in sch today.
For one, there's hist hmk to be handed in.
I scared later Ms Zarinah deduct my marks. :(
BOO.

Secondly, there's dance.
Alot of unsettled things. x((
DOUBLE-BOO.

Haii. Troubled by alot of stuffs now.
What a sad day.

GLOOMY SUNDAY

Sunday is gloomy, the hours are slumberless.
Dearest the shadows I live with are numberless.
Little white flowers will never awaken you.
Not where the dark coach of sorrow has taken you.

Angels have no thought of ever returning you.
Would they be angry if I thought of joining you?
Gloomy Sunday.

Gloomy Sunday,
With shadows I spend it all.
My heart and I have decided to end it all.
Soon there'll be prayers and candles alit I know.
Let them not weep, let them know that I'm glad to go.

Death is a dream, for in death I'm caressing you.
With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you.
Gloomy Sunday.

Dreaming! I was only dreaming.
I wake and I find you asleep onto my heart there.
Darling I hope that my dream hasn't haunted you.
My heart is telling you how much I wanted you.
Gloomy Sunday.

Absolutely Gloomy Sunday.
Gloomy Sunday.

In what way will ppl go suicidal over this song?
Dont get it.

Im tired now. ):
Shall go slp early.
Tmr still got Bio tutorial.
SIANNNNN.

2007-01-16T17:02:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wish he was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
- Lips Of An Angel by Hinder

Going for a MALAY COURSE on Thursday.
Was quite excited cos i thought my friends were gonna be attending the class with me.
In the end, all my friends who applied for the malay course were all in SSS.
So im stuck in the malay course ALL BY MYSELF. )):
SAD CASE.

Haiii. Nothing exciting now.
Bought the DEATHNOTE NOTEBOOK?
Exciting enough?

2007-01-13T22:37:00.000+08:00

Been feeling quite down recently.
Bugged with alot of questions and problems.

Somehow it just feels so empty and hollow.
And everything seems so monotone right now.
Im getting sick of my life.

Someone save me.

2007-01-11T20:55:00.000+08:00

Im totally lovin' sec 4. ((:

1st of all, our classroom is on the 2nd level!

2nd, our teachers rock!! :D

*a math circular measure test tmr! time to study! :)

COME ON EVERYBAAADY! :DDD

O level is like, so this year.

2007-01-05T18:44:00.000+08:00

Thanks Benny for lending me THE BLACK PARADE CD to burn! ((:
It's the only thing that's making me happy now.
Yeah. Been pretty down in the dumps lately. )):
Time to cheer up and do hmk.
Gosh, i hate being sec 4.

2007-01-02T22:14:00.000+08:00

I've never felt so insulted in my life.

After watching "Night At The Museum", i went off to Dunman Food Court (at Joo Chiat) to eat dinner with my parents.
I went to order Fried Hokkien Prawn Mee and Char Kway Teow.
Then, the uncle at the stall said,"Wo ji de ni! Ni shi zai na bian lai de! (i rmb you! you come from there one!) *points somewhere*"
I turned around, and realized it was Joo Chiat walk.
He kept staring lecherously.
Then i realize that he was pointing towards an effing NIGHTCLUB.
IM A KTV GIRL??!?!
WHAT THE.
I was so insulted. And disgusted.
HOW THE HELL COULD I LOOK LIKE A KTV GIRL.
SOMEMORE HE SAY HE "REMEMBER" ME.
WAH LAU.
Somemore Joo Chiat is famous for its prostitutes.
NEHHNEHHH.
So. Urgh.
Forget it.

NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM IS NICE! (:
Funny shit. xDD
WHO'S EVOLVED?
WHO'S EVOLVED?
I AM. ):

2007-01-01T01:25:00.000+08:00

i wonder if you know
if my mum's in Tokyo
and my dad's in Hokkaido
and we all go fly dodo~
thanks alot kor for the SPASTIC song

HAPPY NEW YEAR! (:

Sorry to those ppl i declined going out with for countdown and stuff..
Didnt wanna leave my mum alone at home..
But i guess im free tmr! x))

Anyway, more abt Orientation Camp!

The CLUSTERS we called
APUS (eh-pes)
DRACO (dra-co)
PAVO (pay-vo)
VOLANS (vo-lens)

There were individual cluster cheers..
But i only know Apus' cheer cos i was in the AFC (Apus Fan Club).

Sha sha sha sha shou!
Why are we so pro?
This is Apus show!
Others can go home!
(taken from VS/VJC)

Draco one was something like this..
I say you say i say DRA!
I say you say i say CO!
I say you say i say DRACO, DRACO DRACO DRACO.. DRACO.. DRACO...
(sing the last line like Ole, Ole Ole Ole..)

Pavo one little bit the long.. Cannot remember..
I just know got alot of funny actions.
AND! The last line is..
Pavo, WOO! Pavo, WOO! Pavo Pavo, WOOOO~!
xD

Volans one lagi long.
Something like we can fly and we can swim.. Blah blah blah. Cant rmb.

Nonetheless i had alot of fun bonding with the 39th SMExCo.
After all, i missed out on 2 and a half years with them. (X

The Mass Dance during the camp was kinda wasted.
I mean, Wenbin and Aloy took alot of time to choreo the dance and simplify alot of actions.
In the end, even though Wenbin and I took only 1 and a half hours to teach the entire dance to the entire cohort of sec ones, (with of course the massive help from the OGLs),
They werent dancing it during the campfire.
It's understood cos they couldnt catch the steps..
But, it still kinda made us sad and slightly depressed during the campfire. ):

The sec ones this year were also not well-mannered.
First of all, during supper, after one of them finished their milo, they wanted another cup.
So you know what he said?
"More Milo."
After that Crystal Chan just poured another cup for him.
I was pissed off at him, i mean, couldnt he use the word PLEASE?
Me: Crystal, are you his maid?
Crystal: Huh? No lah.
Me: Then why you pour for him even though he never say PLEASE?
Crystal: Aiyah, i dont mind.
Oh gawd i swear i could just slap that boy right in the face.

2nd incident.
During Night Games, i was in the same station with Weisheng, Wenbin, Faustina, Gayle and Yongsheng.
SEVEN STATION MASTERS! LOL
OG 24/26 (i think) came to our station.

Me, Weisheng and Wenbin were sitting there acting like ghosts.
Wenbin wasnt moving, while i had my hair over my head and was rocking to and fro.
Weisheng was just standing there.

Afterwards, the group came up, and they started touching Wenbin's hair.
They were obscenely rude too.
One guy was saying, "I throw egg at them see whether they move not! HAHAHHAA"
Later he said to his friend, "I pay you $10 you beat up this guy *points to wenbin* for me."

They were also going to touch me, and i swear, if they did,
I would just lunge straight for their throats.
When they left, Weisheng started shouting at them to enter the toilets.
HAH! That's when they became humji.
Blah blah blah.. They didnt dare..
Dunno what.. Then they left.

Next grp.
OG 28.
There was this really KP guy.
He was jumping around like noone's business and trying hard not to act scared.
Afterwards, when i told him that ONE PERSON HAS TO GO INTO THE TOILET,
He actually pointed to the girls in his grp and said, "Jiu shi ni le."

Then i replied, "NO. I WANT A BOY TO GO IN."
There were only 2 boys in that grp.
And he looked to his friend.
LOL. I was jeering him in my heart.

Afterwards, Weisheng got really pissed with him.
He said, "I give you 5 seconds, you either get your bloody ass into the toilet or you bloody hell get out of my sight."
That guy was still AP.
Oh gosh. Weisheng was furious.
In the end, we just decided to let the matter drop.
Didnt really care anymore.

While waiting for the grps to arrive, we were dipping our fingers into hot candle wax.
You know something, it actually feels great.
It has this slight ticklish biting sensation in the beginning, later it starts to harden, and that's when the fun begins.
But seeing the wax dry on your fingers is uberly cool too. ((:

I am what Yongsheng calls - SADISTIC. SELF-MUTILATON.

Oh well.
There's alot of stuff that happened during Orientation Camp.
Internal conflict, struggles, late night meetings, PA morning calls, cock-ups, nice food (not sarca, it was nice), tears, laughter, fatigue, strepsils etc.
Overall, i enjoyed it very much. ((:

JIAYOU JIAYOU FOR 2007!
O LEVELS ARE COMING, TO TOWN! XDDD

2006-12-31T18:26:00.000+08:00

Orientation Camp's over.
2006 is about to be over in a few hours.

This year has been very eventful.
I made ALOT of new friends.
Got myself involved in lotsa stuffs too.
And, as busy as it was, i enjoyed the entire year nonetheless. (:

First: 3C
I didnt really know alot of ppl then.
But, over the days, we went thru alot as a class.
After Bonding Camp, the spirit of the class was at its peak.
Soon, after negative comments from the teachers and many many many problems we faced,
The spirit started to go downhill.
Right now, it's not very good.
But, i have faith that in 2007, we can go uphill once more, and go thru our O Levels as one bonded class. ((:

Second: Council
Even though i never prepared myself to be accepted into the Student Council in sec 3,
But, i've never regretted joining the student council, no matter how busy or stressful i was.
Through council, i managed to make alot of new friends, and got to know more ppl in the other levels.
I got to experience alot of things i never got to in the past, and council pretty much took up all of my time in the holidays.

Third: Dance
I became the vice-president of dance, and got to know Minghui and Yaqi alot better.
We sort of became closer, and even though Dance didnt really improve under our reign,
But i understood alot of predicaments our seniors were facing,
And in a way, managed to get some juniors back into dance. ((:

Chiang Rai, prom, camps etc etc..
These year has provided me lots and lots of memories. :D

Anyway, back to NOW.
I lost my voice during Orientation Camp.
The spirit during Orientation was both high and low.
During RARA, it was high.
During Dirty Games/Team Building it was raining, so it became low.
During Campfire, it was pathetically low. This was when i lost my voice. xD
During Water Games/Telematch, it was kinda high.

During Orientation Camp, i had to say Goodbye to someone i just knew this year - Zhixin.
After the campfire, she was trying to run away from everybody in the parade square.
I managed to catch her and hug her.
She "wasnt" crying.. When i hugged her, she started crying and i started tearing.
She's going off to TJC next year, so we're kinda not gonna see her again.
Campfire was emotional, many ppl cried cos of the IP ppl. ):

To Zhixin: Even though i only knew you this year, but you've been a very sweet junior, and i'll never forget you. (: You dont have to be sad either, TJ is only a few busstops away.. We'll still see each other! :D Good luck in JC alright! We'll miss you. -dumdiddlyaway!

Throughout the camp, i was seriously tired.
No idea why.
But anyway, I HAVE 12 UNDONE CHINESE COMPOS.
Mr Leaf is gonna kill me next year. GAHHH.

And GOOD NEWS!
I GOT A DIGICAM!
Oh gosh, i've been waiting for one since i was sec one!!!!!
((((:
Happy New Year people!

2006-12-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

Shits.

I walked down the hill in the rain just now.
Went into the aircon bus.
Went out.
Went into another aircon bus.

Reached home.
Ate dinner.
Slept.
Woke up.
Went out with my mum again to do some stuffs.
Came home.
Bathe.

Sneezing.
Blocked nose.
Slight fever.
Headache.
Constant feeling of vomitting.

Shit.
Im sick.

2006-12-25T21:06:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

and a

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
to my sis who turns 19 today!

Sorry for the uber lamo present xDD
2 more years to TWENTY-ONE! (:

For me..

6 more months to SIXTEEN!!!!!!!!
(((((:

Yesterday i went to the airport to pick up my 2 aussie cousins - Jenvicka and Pauline.
They still look like lil' girls. x))
Pauline has slimmed down and Jen is looking more and more like Zhang Bo Zhi.

My cousin - Jenvicka

I havent taken a pic with her yet.
But seriously, she totally looks like Zhang Bo Zhi.

WELCOME TO SINGAPORE, GIRLS! (:

2006-12-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone! (:

I went to church yesterday.
Been almost a year since i went to church.
It was quite nice. Almost the same as last year.
There was a drama, candlelight service, tears, prayer, blah blah.
Yupyup.

Then i celebrated Christmas Eve by playing MAHJONG. xDD
Okay lah. Won a little bit of money!

I cant wait for ORIENTATION CAMP.
Cant wait to see the SEC 4s'o7. :D

Starting to play AUDITION le!
I can say sayonara to my hol hmk.
Havent started yet.
So effing S-C-R-E-W-E-D.

2006-12-22T21:22:00.001+08:00

These few days have been a blast. (:

1) Viva Dasant (Dance Camp)
Sadly, I missed almost the entire camp. ):
But, i DIDNT MISS NIGHT GAMES! :D
It was super fun cos my juniors were funny! Hahhaa
I was stationed inside the TOWER HALL with JOCELYN (oh gaawwwdd)
I was acting as a crazed ballerina. LOLLL
Minghui had to pei me cos i was super duper scared. xDD

Our 1st group was Jiaying's group. :)
It was fun because even before the games started they were screaming! X)))
2nd group! Poor Shermaine got freaked out and cried. Gosh. So sorry. Hhahaha
3rd group: Annia's group. Not fun one. ):

During Night Games it was raining too. Guess it added to the atmosphere!

2) Fete De La Danse (Ballet Concert)
Rehearsals were super tiring.
But thankfully, the actual thing went quite smoothly.
BUUUUTTTT I SCREWED UP!!
I FORGOT STEPS LEH!!!!!!
Oh well.
Hhaha. Hopefully the cameraman didnt capture that scene. LOL.
I received lots of flowers too! (:
I'll get the pictures and post them up soon! :D

3) Dance Farewell
Didnt go. ):

4) Council Farewell
Didnt go either. ):

5) Orientation Training Camp
It was a BLAST! (:
I was regarded as a SM during the camp.
I wasnt playing the games anymore.
I WAS A STATION MASTER! :D
DIRTY GAMES i was station master for splat!
WET GAMES i was station master for i like to move it move it!
TELEMATCH i was station master for dog and bone!
SHIZILUKOU i wasnt a station master but i pretended to be with Hanlu, Guoxiang and Junle at TM!
The dance was really good too!
We were bopping around like retarded AUDITION ppl during the parts where we didnt need to dance! xDD
Thanks wenbin for the dance! (:
It's been long since i actually ENJOYED a stress-free dance.

On the last day there was registration.
We all slept at around 1+ 2am, and we all agreed to wake up at 0600.
I woke up, and looked around.
I saw Edison, Wong, and Crystal Chan sleeping around me in the AVT.
I was wondering where everybody was.
I looked at my phone, and i was thinking what time it was.
I looked at the clock. 0704.
I stoned there. 0704 didnt click in my head.
I was thinking whether it was 5 something. Dont ask me why.
I stone there. Then, it hit me.
0704??!?!!
HOLY SHITTT!!!!!!!!!
I woke them up hurriedly, and felt so dumb.
HAHAH!
During registration, i repeated the same thing about 60 plus times.
GOSH. NO VOICE LIAO. x))

Thanks COUNCIL for making this camp really fun. :D

UPCOMING!
6) Orientation Dance Performance
7) Sec One Orientation Camp
8) School Reopening

Everywhere I go, every smile I see,
I know you are there, smilin' back at me
Dancin' in moonlight, I know you are free
Cos I can see your star, shinin' down on me

GO BEIDOUXINGS!
GO APUS! ANUS! xD
GO VOLANS! BOLAN! xD
GO DRACO! WEISHENG'S D~~RAGON~~ DINOSAUR! xD
GO PAVO! CHICKENS! xD

2006-12-17T17:43:00.000+08:00

Upcoming events:

1) Viva Dasant (Dance Camp)
2) Fete De La Danse (Ballet Concert)
3) Dance Farewell
4) Council Farewell
5) Orientation Training Camp
6) Sec One Orientation Camp
7) School Reopening

SHIOK!
GO DANCE!
GO COUNCIL!
(:

2006-12-15T21:19:00.000+08:00

Sorry if i scared some ppl today.
Dont know what came over me.

Thanks Hanlu for comforting me,
Letting my pour out all my troubles to you. (:
THANK YOU. :D

Thanks YOU TWO for lending me your voices for Night Games. :D

Anyway, we had council meeting today.
And oh gosh im doing DIRTY GAMES with Willie, Gayle and Weiyang.
HABEST. (X

2007 FRESHIES, GOOD LUCK. xDD

I feel sadistic now.
Hehehehe.

Wenbin also asked me to help him choreo the Mass Dance cos Clarice is away on hol or something during Orientation.
Hahaha. Should be can lah. (:

I met Chin Meng on the bus too.
LOL.

Im freakin' random now.
Shall go sleep. MY WORRIES AWAY!

Boy the things you do
Keep me strong
Keep me running back to you

2006-12-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

I had a dream again. ._.

In this dream, i dreamt i was lost, and was walking a LONG LONG LONG and BIG BIG BIG walkway.
It's something like the storage places at Harbourfront there.

Then i rmb asking someone i know (but i cant rmb who) how to get to AHS for camp.
I think it was Farewell Camp (WT).
I had this dilemma, whether to go or not go.
I wanted to go to sch to tell Junle i couldnt go (LOL).

Then i saw the MRT. ._.
It was one of the NE stations.
(If im not wrong it's Kovan)
And because i had BUS PASS, i REFUSED to take the bloody MRT.
MUST TAKE BUS.
So didnt go to the MRT station.

I continued walking, and arrived in the concourse steps there.
._. I couldnt find Junle.
Then i saw Aloy, and he asked me, "Nalina! You staying for Night Games not?"
I said no, and he told me that i was in the same grp as one of the sec 4s (use your imagination! tag who u think it is, and if u're right, i'll give you a BIG WET SLOBBERING KISS).
And i decided to stay.
LOL.

Then i woke up.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Why so many dreams lately? ):

Anyway!
Ballet! (:
Pictures pictures!
I took very little only cos use other ppl cam mah.
I NEED MY OWN DIGICAM. ):

Rehearsal! Eunice and me. (:

Me and Eunice again. Hhaha.. Ballet partners! (:

ME AND BECKY! :D

JELISSA, SHU EN, ME AND BECKY! (:

FULL GROUP PIC! pretty colours. :D

I know i look fat compared to the others lah.
Darn it.

when something ends, something begins.
when someone loses, someone wins.
but now, it's just the end of the road.

2006-12-10T17:59:00.000+08:00

in bold: things that are true
in italics: things that i wish were true

i miss somebody right now.
i dont watch tv these days.
i wear glasses or contact lenses.
i love to play video games.
i've tried marijuana.
i have been in a threesome.
i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
i believe honesty is usually the best policy.
i curse sometimes.
i have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
i'm totally smart.
i've broken someone's bones.
i'm paranoid sometimes.
i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, f.o.c and scar-free.
i need money right now.
i love sushi.
i talk really, really fast.
i have long hair.
i have lost money in Las Vegas.
i have at least one sibling.
i have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
i couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
i like the way i look.
i am usually pessimistic.
i have a lot of mood swings.
i have a hidden talent.
i'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
i have a lot of friends.
i am currently single.
i have pecked someone of the same sex.
i enjoy talking on the phone.
i practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
i would rather shop then eat.
i don't hate anyone.
im a pretty good dancer.
i'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
i have a cell phone.
i believe in God.
i watch MTV on a daily basis.
i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
i have rejected someone before.
i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
i have changed a diaper before.
i've called the cops on a friend before.
i'm not allergic to anything.
i have a lot to learn.
i love to shop.
i've been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
i am shy around the opposite sex.
i have tried alcohol before.
i have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
i own the "South Park" movie.
i would die for my best friends.
i think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
i have used my sexuality to advance my career.
i love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is fun because you get candy.
i watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
i am happy at this moment.
i have more than just my ears pierced.
i walk barefoot wherever i can.
i have jumped off a bridge.
i love sea turtles.
i plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
i'm proficient in a musical instrument.
i've worked at McDonald's restaurant.
i hate office jobs.
i love sci-fi movies.
i think water rules.
i went college out of state.
i like sausages.
i fall for the worst people.
i adore bright colours.
i usually like covers better than originals.
i can pick up things with my toes.
i can't whistle.
i can move my tongue in waves.
i have ridden/owned a horse.
i still have every journal I've ever written in.
i can't stick to a diet.
i talk in my sleep.
i try to forget things by drowning them with distractions
i have jazz in my blood.
i wear a toe ring.
i have a tattoo.
i can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
i am a caffeine junkie.
i know what cosplaying is.
i have been to over 15 conventions.
i will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.

planned on posting videos.
but it just didnt work. ):

go to youtube and check TRANJI alright!
GYRATE. (:

2006-12-09T22:41:00.000+08:00

i had the weirdest dream last night.

i dreamt i was sitting in a room, full of ppl.
and i was SMOKING.
there was this really really really long brown stick, like a cigar.
except that it was thin.

i dreamt i lit it up, and i sat there smoking.
the rest of my dream was just pretty much me sitting there smoking.
then i rmbed choking, and i woke up.

gosh.
what a random dream.

oh yes.
something really no link.
i suddenly think GERARD WAY from My Chemical Romance is kinda cute.
i think my brain is now permaenently fried.

SOMEONE GET ME THE BLACK PARADE! (:
Or lend me to *burn. MOOHAHA. xD
*hint hint BEN! coughcough.
Hahahha.

Cant really sleep now.
So was kinda searching around the internet for stuffs.
Found this website: www.songmeanings.net
There are not many interpretations of songs, but at some songs, some ppl actually post their interpretations of the song.
Which is kinda nice to hear from another person's point of view.

There was this song by Josh Groban, Vincent (Starry Starry Night),
Which i didnt quite understand.
Then i went online and searched,
And VOILA!
It's actually talking abt the artist, Vincent Van Gough and his insane life of art.
Cool right?

Okay u may not find it cool but i do.
Super random. xD

Went around looking for MCR stuff too. (:
Read ppl's interpretations, and read their song lyrics, could really see sincerity and many layers of meanings in their songs.
Strong lyrics. :D

Then, being the freak that i am, saw some pics of MCR.
And realized that Gerard Way was kinda cute.
OH GOSH.
I was like staring at his pic like a freak.
Then i asked my mum whether he good-looking not.

Me: Mummy. This guy nice not?
Mum: Not nice. *conts watching Doha Games*
Me: Oei you never see properly! He cute lah! Hahah
Mum: Orh. Yah. Cute lorh.

What a sucker.

Oh well.
I just love typing my sis' laptop.
That's why im crapping alot. x))

Oh yes!
Today there was ballet rehearsal and photoshoot.
I got a BLUE dress.
It so clashes with my RED shoes pls.
But i know i shouldnt complain. (:

We kinda started at 1pm with a briefing.
After that, we went to our various holding areas.
At my area there, there was this DEAD, SQUISHED LIZARD WITH ITS BLOODY GUTS on the floor.
I was freaking out whenever i had to leave the door.
Yuck.

The dress was kinda incomplete without the invisible strap holding it up and the line of sequins on the rim of the dress.
So, when i was dancing, it just kept slipping down.
SO EMBARRASSING! xDD
There were other guys from outside that were watching us too.
Oh gosh, it was just humiliating with our dresses slipping down and us pulling them back up.
Super unglam. x((

And i found out that two of my ballet friends, Eunice and Sy Jia, were pri sch friends with my current sec sch friend Junliang.
LOL.

Eunice has the pics with her.
So next time i shall upload yeah. (:

Anyway, the entire thing ended around 5pm.
After that, our class had a photoshoot too.
So, we ended at around 6pm.

I was really tired by then, couldnt wait to go home. ):

Oh gosh.
Next week it'll be until 10pm.
KILL ME!!!

2006-12-08T01:17:00.000+08:00

I keep forgetting to update abt Student Council Bonding Camp even though it was on the 1st. (:

1st day.
Met Minghui early in sch to teach her new choreography.
There was dance on the same day as the camp, so i couldnt go for practice.
Went to sch at 7am. (FREAKIN' EARLY!)
Bonding Camp started at 8am. (:

First, we had to group into groups of 4.
Then, flour and water had to be used to style a group member's hair.
So, the only guy in my group (Zhou Yang), suay suay kena. :D
We did some mohawk thingie on his head. LOL.

After that got runway show. Normal.
Tried to be high but couldnt because i was seriously too tired.
Only when i mixed alot of flour with water, and started spraying ppl did the atmosphere brighten up.
I was chasing ppl around the canteen and concourse which was super fun. xDD

After that, we got split into REAL GROUPS.
My group was called: WAX aka WAXXY aka WAXXIE?
Facilitator: HANLU! (and yongsheng but he abandoned us. ):)

We played Water Games and i got drenched by STUPID DARYL.
Everyone was soaking wet and i had sand in my pants because of Aloy's station.
At his station, we had to slide down the canvas down the slope.
I was kinda scared, because i have a fear of heights.
So Aloy, being the kind soul, offered to accompany me. (:
In the end he got abrasions on his butt. x)) (SORRY!!)

Had to pass chairs, run around the concourse drenched, beg the stupid station masters (haha) for ice-cream sticks.

Enjoyable.

After that we had something interesting.
Instead of Dirty Games, we had something more like, SKILLS GAMES. (:
I found it more fun because we had to use our brains.

First hall we went to was The Food Hall.
We tried and tried all the stations, and managed to get to the next one!

The Memory Hall!
That one i cannot make it. HAHAHHAHA

Next: The Skills Hall
This was super hard.
We tried for 20+ times and still couldnt get it.
So we went to another hall first before coming back.

The Sports Hall
Guys and girls had to do diff stuff.
Last part was to play bball with 3 other sec 3s.
At first at th briefing we were told that 3 ppl vs Bryan Toh,
We had to score 3 he had to score 10.
But when we went there they told us it was 3 vs 3.
They had to get 10 we had to score 3.
So, it was..
Zhou Yang, Stefan, Nalina VS
Edison, Victor, Daryl

AND WE WON! :D

We went back to the Skills Hall,
AND WE MANAGED TO COMPLETE IT!
Hanlu was being a crazy person! Hahahha
"Ni jiao xiao yi dian, xiao yi dian! AAAHHH Guan guan! Hao ni tai right leg! Xiao xin xiao xin.. AHHHHH!!! ..."
Yeah. It was pretty much like that almost the entire time. xDD

After that, we had dinner.
And it was Night Games organised by the sec twos.
Oh gosh.

In every group there was supposed to be 8 ppl.
I found out from Cheryl that my group had 5 sec 3s and 3 sec 1s.
In the end,
Only WEISHENG and I were in one group.

SO FUN RIGHT??!??!!

We had to play EVERY station.
And i was pretty much freaked out.
He was just gung-ho. LOL.
I was freaking out, then he just approach the "ghost".
SUCKER!

Anyway it ended with me in alot of red colouring (which smelled like strawberry),
And "poison red wine" (which was chocolate sauce + strawberry + dunno what thing; found out from miaoqian) on my shirt.
And no plot. HAHAHA

But it was really fun. (:
For the first time i didnt feel so scared during night games and i didnt scream very loudly.
Plus, i consoled Zhixin okay! SHE WAS DERANGED AND I CONSOLED HER.
*proud of myself* xDD

After that, everyone was dismissed.
Sec 3s stayed back for a meeting and after that i went to play piano with Weiyang and Shawn.
"BEEEEE.. BOHHHH... BEEEEE..."
._. So funny.

Then i went to talk with Aloy abt some stuff, before going off to Market 85 for supper.
My mum picked me up, and i went home.

Day 2.
They had Amazing Race in the morning.
Starting at 8.30am.
I had ballet at 1pm to 5pm.
So i decided not to go.
Of course, i informed them beforehand that i wasnt going (:

It was kinda a pity.
Because i have never attended a single Amazing Race.
And i think i just blew my chance of my 1st ever Amazing Race. ):

I had a Photo Call at ballet.
Which needed me to be in a bun and makeup.
So when i finished ballet i had to go home first and bathe.
SO WASTE TIME! ):

I went back to sch at around 6pm.
I was informed that i would be playing a MEI NU in a skit! (I AM A MEI NU IN REAL LIFE ALSO K! xDD)
MEI NU IN THE SKIT WITH A DAUGHTER CALLED RU HUA (Yongsheng). ._. Who will seduce Jay Chou (Guoxiang) and Fang Wen Shan (Daryl).
In the hall, the sec 3s were practising the dance (investiture dance - take the lead).
So, i was the DJ. Cos i dunno the dance. (:
After that we practised singing songs.
And tabby cried. ._.

We sang: That's What Friends Are For, Peng You and Tong Hua.
3 super emo songs. Hahahaa..

After that, we played soccer in the hall for a while (with a puny lil' ball) and practised the skit.
I had to act "teh". WTHHHHH

At 7pm the BBQ started.
Me, Chermain, Hanlu and Tabby went to the toilet.
And my nose started bleeding like crazy.
Before that i was rubbing and rubbing my nose cos it was super itchy.

It bled ALOT.
Of all times it had to bleed so much during Bonding Camp.
So sao xing. ):

After my nose stopped bleeding, we went to BBQ.
I had to do PA for the opening dance because i was the only sec 3 not dancing.
So i was alone in the PA box. Hahhaa.
I was so scared i would screw up. LOL.

Later i found out the vol was so loud the speaker almost exploded. OH GOSH.

After that we tried to start the fire, and was super shi bai.
HAHAHA.
All the other tables fire start liao only our table havent yet.
I was laughing like crazy, trying to liven the mood. (:

Tian Cai Zhi Ye started.
And the groups performed their items.
Were all quite "blah".
Maybe cos the themes were really hard.
*shrugs*

Sec 3s had skits too!
We had Goong (Weisheng, Tabby and Leonard)! My Lovely Samsoon (Kewei, Hanlu and Wong). As well as Ru Hua (Me, Yongsheng, Guoxiang, Daryl).

Lastly was American Idol.
Which was only performed by the sec 3s.
We sang the 3 songs we rehearsed.
And, we had already said that during "Peng You", when there was a long time where noone was singing, Junle would stand up and apologise to the councillors for all the screw-ups.
In the end it just turned out to be a major emo session.

Everyone was seriously crying.
Except me, Weiyang, Shawn, Chengjun etc. (i think there were somemore. but i cant really rmb)
Mrs Goh came to talk to the 3 of us because the rest of them were in the AVT drying their tears.

Some other councillors cried too.
Maybe cause they felt the sec 3s pain, or effort, or apology.
It varies.

After that, the mood livened up,
Some ppl continued crying, pouring out their sorrows.
But most of them split into their comms and started saying what was going wrong and every one seemed to enjoy themselves once again.

Wong and I went to the council room to get our PUB TEES!
It's really really really nice. :D

We have PUB TEE! and PUB TIE!
Gosh, how may comms have that? xD

Guys have Lime Green words and Lime Green tie.
Girls have Hot Pink words and Hot Pink tie.
SHIOK! :D

Cheng Jun was just looking into the sky,
And he realized that there was a circle around the moon.
It was really beautiful. (:
I looked up. and just stared.
And Chiang Rai just flashed back.
Felt like crying.
But didnt.

After that it was just a normal everyone sit down and talk session.
Me, Aloy and Wong went into the AVT to "dance".
Something freaky happened.

*OUTSIDE JOKING AND LAUGHING*
*ENTER AVT*
Wong: Ni bu yao chao lah! Ta men zai kan dian ying!
Me: Orh! Diu bu qi! Sorry sorry! *laugh*
Aloy: *laugh* *kick a chair (for fun)
He turns around, and accidentally kicks another chair.
His big toe started bleeding like crazy.

He stumbled into the PA box,
Slippers and everything all in blood.

Me: Oh gosh, why like that?
Aloy: I was disrespectful.
Me: Erm. What? Disrespectful?
Aloy: Seriously. You think i kick the chair will bleed until so much one meh? Wont one.
Me: Eh Aloy. Dont scare me. I still need to get out of here one leh.
Victor: No lah. Aiyah, you dumb go kick the chair, of course will cut and bleed lah!
Aloy: WAH! DAMN PAIN!!!
Me: Oh gosh.

I could kinda see that Victor was just trying to not freak me out.
Aloy was scaring me, and Victor knew i was scared.
Gosh. Why am i so hum ji? )):

After that, i just went home.
And that's the end of Bonding Camp 2006!
my first and last bonding camp~

2006-12-05T21:26:00.000+08:00

Everything's going better now.
More relaxed.
Because, i guess i have the backing of my friends.
At least i know im not alone. (:

Gosh. But i feel so bad for not going to 3C chalet. ):
Hopefully tmr i can make it for the BBQ which at night.
I have ballet from 5pm to 8.30pm. (OH GAAWWDDD)
Tired. Stressed. Unrelaxed.

But at least not bad, finished quite alot of the dance today. :D
Proud of Minghui and Yaqi. Hhaha.
(Almost) Finished book 4 of DEATHNOTE! xDD
(I read very slow cos i can only read on the bus. Which is like, half an hour)

Oh well.
I must say that Bonding Camp was quite an ESCAPE for me. (:
Feels good to be accepted (in a way).

Okay.
Im really tired now.
That's why what im saying doesnt make sense and are in pieces.
Sorry.
x))

2006-12-03T22:27:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating much guys!
been really busy..
and will continue to be busy until around the END OF DECEMBER
which leaves this blog pretty much DEAD.

continue to tag though!
i'll come back regularly to check the tags! ((:
HUGS AND KISSES!! :D
*MUACK*